I learned TM in 1968. Mahesh
had just been dumped by the Beatles, something I didn’t know at the time; he hadn’t yet started showing the world just who
could out-perform some of the greatest performers of his time. TM was, at that
time, just a nice thing, twice a day, and meeting with other meditators once in
a while and hearing a talk by Mahesh was also nice (even though looking back I
knew full well that he didn’t always say things I could understand). No, it
probably wasn’t a nice thing, but it seemed like that at the superficial level.
Two years later, I quit a
perfectly good, well-paying job to become a TM teacher and the year after that,
Mahesh asked me to stay on as a member of his “international staff”! This
lasted 3 years, until one day I got a call: Maharishi
wants you to go and teach. And
that was the end of my sojourn with his travelling psychotic circus. The year
after that, I quit TM.
So, here’s what I am
thinking: I noticed when I moved house, recently, that it was very hard to remember
to do little things, small matters of daily routine previously established. I’d
forget to floss or I’d forget to put something away, forget where I had put something that used to have a “special” place; I’d reach out to put my
hand on something, but it wasn’t there any more. Alas, the “old ways” have
ceased to function.
I had created patterns,
pathways of behaviour that were dependent upon the relatively stable objects in
my environment (where furniture was, what set of behaviours to follow after watching TV in the
evening, for example) — I had previously been prompted by a routine
that had become dependent upon the objects in my environment and now those prompts were gone but the
behaviours remained, the tendencies remained, the patterns remained - but didn’t exactly work! This is
obvious to almost all of us the first time we come home and find that the
furniture has been re-arranged! We keep stumbling over the furniture as well as
the routines set up by the old arrangements.
No, this isn’t news.
But what might come as
something of a surprise is when we put this exact same thing into the TM-Maheshism
context: we established patterns of behaviour based on the
relatively fixed or stable things in our environment. For example: we are
prompted to do and think specific things dependent upon either the objects or
people who remind us of what comes next. So, it’s easy to get set into patterns we have
created in order to easily navigate our environment, whether or not that
environment is physical, mental, or, in another sense, emotional. Because
TM-Maheshism is based on very subtle suggestion, subtle prompts established
during our highly susceptible moods generated by TM, our patterns are deep-set,
almost ingrained, deeper than “superficiality”.
We depend on our environment
to remind us what to do after we do this or that. Otherwise, almost every
activity would be new learning, take a lot of time and we’d become very
frustrated and stressed; our productivity would decrease and our quality of
life would be less skilfully managed.
People who travel constantly
(salesmen, military personnel, etc.) spend a lot of time
reminding themselves of routines because there are no external prompts or
because external prompts are constantly changing. It’s somewhat of a tiring
life! It’s a lot like living in the constantly changing rooms of the fun-house
at the amusement park – but not very amusing on a long-term basis.
So what point am I making‽
First, I want to be very
clear that I am in no way seeking to perpetuate the all too familiar defence
mechanism followed religiously by the Maheshites! I am not seeking to
blame the victim here. BUT, we all have to, at one time or another, recognize
that we were “victimized” by Mahesh. We were beguiled by his charms and built
up patterns of behaviour in order to find our way around his various teachings
and attempts to control our lives. Really, simple as that.