Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Paul Mason Developing Alternative to Transcendental Meditation

Paul Mason shared some of his recent work with me recently. He generously gave me permission to post it on TMFB.

This not an endorsement. But Paul's an interesting thinker.

I always give him a listen.

J.


From the many references in Guru Dev's discourses it is clear that he advocated several practices including puja, bhajan, pranayama, japaand dhyana.


Here are a couple of further quotes from Guru Dev:-

'The method to join the mind to Paramatma is japa of Bhagwan’s mantra, and dhyaana (contemplation / meditation) of swaroop (true nature of the Supreme Being).

तज्जपस्तदर्थ भावनम्
" tajjapastadartha bhaavanam "
[Patanjali's Yoga-Darshanam 1:28]
[tat = that, japa = repetition, astadartha = that purpose, bhaavanam = contemplation]
‘The purpose of that japa (repetition of mantra) is contemplation.'

Shiva, Vishnu, Shakti, Surya, Ganesha are actually all forms of Bhagwan. Do japa of the names of any of these too and do dhyaana(contemplation / meditation) of the swaroop (true nature)of that fit mantra - right here is the method of Bhagwan’s bhajan (worship).
If you will do only japa then the mind will flit here and there. By doing dhyaana (contemplation / meditation) the mind is bound. Therefore, you should set in motion both japa and dhyaana together.'
- from 'Amrit Kana', Part 8
http://www.paulmason.info/gurudev/AKtransrough.htm

'At daybreak and in the day do that puja (ritual worship), japa and dhyaana (meditation) etc. which is appropriate, but at night you should certainly do 10-15 minutes of japa (repetition) of the ishta mantra and dhyaana of the ishta murti (desired form) before sleeping. Rapid advancement occurs by this upasana (sitting near / devout meditation).

In darkness (nightime) you should sit with eyes closed and do japa of the mantra, and in the same way with eyes closed you should do dhyaana of the ishta with the mind. Not on their whole body, you should look on the foot or on the mouth area of the head, seeing our favourite ishta full of compassion, looking infused with tenderness. The vision of the ishta becomes one’s own desire. You should not envisage the eye of the ishta to be closed. This manner of having seen the vision of the infusion of tenderness, doing dhyaana of the ishta in the heart, you should remain doing japa of the ishta mantra. From this, the image of theishta will grow and provided that the mind gets strengthened and held with the ishta then in the end it will stay in this condition. You will be going across the ocean of samsara (worldliness) on the strength of this.
- 'Shri Shankaracharya Upadeshamrit', 88 of 108 Discourses of Guru Dev
http://www.paulmason.info/gurudev/upadesh.htm

Now when Maharishi taught meditation he also chose the mantra of the god, but soon he became aware he was teaching non-Hindus too. So, he taught the mantras but fell silent on the topic of the ishta, hoping that people would be able to focus on the unmanifest aspect. However Guru Dev warned that this was not possible, saying:-

'That person who meditates on the formless, in that connection we ask how did you meditate on nirakara? If you are to make contemplation then you will continue the vritti, but how can you make a meditation of the nirakara (formless)? You cannot make meditation of nirakara. If anyone says that they meditate on nirakara then it is like stating that there is a son of a childless woman is going in a marriage procession. There is not really a son of a barren woman, then of what kind is the marriage procession? When there is not any mark or form of the nirakara then how is meditation of it made? You should have some basis to consolidate the vritti (fluctuations of the mind). That which is the basis, that really will be sakara (having form). '
- 'Shri Shankaracharya Upadeshamrit', 48 of 108 Discourses of Guru Dev
http://www.paulmason.info/gurudev/upadesh.htm

There is a method that reconciles the situation and that is a method that neither uses japa nor dhyana, an ancient system called raja yoga or 'royal yoga'.
http://www.paulmason.info/YogMeditation/nothoughtmeditation.htm

When Guru Dev met his guru, Dandi Swami Krishnanand Saraswati, apparently the study of raja yoga was being taught at the ashram:-

'There were quite a good many disciples there, people doing practises of yoga, and hatha yoga, and raja yoga, and mantra yoga, so many people, disciples, engaged in their own practices.'
- Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, speaking on July 27th 1961 in California, USA
http://www.paulmason.info/YogMeditation/nothoughtmeditation.htm

Swami Sivananda Saraswati tells us about Raja Yoga:-

'Raja Yoga is the king of Yogas. It concerns directly with the mind. In this Yoga there is no struggling with Prana or physical body. There are no Hatha Yogic Kriyas. The Yogi seats at ease, watches his mind and silences the bubbling thoughts. He stills the mind, restraints the thought-waves and enters into the thoughtless state or Asamprajnata Samadhi, Hence the name Raja Yoga.'

'ASAMPRAJNATA: Highest superconscious state where the mind is completely annihilated and Reality experienced.'
http://www.dlshq.org/teachings/rajayoga.htm


Thursday, September 17, 2009

The Charisma of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, the Founder of Transcendental Meditation

About a month ago, I attended a 2-hour workshop on healing through movement. After this brief workshop, I wanted to immediately buy the presenter's book, take his classes, do home practice off his audiotapes, immerse myself in his technique and philosophy, and become a true believer, practitioner and follower.

I had to shake myself awake! It was only because of my years in recovery from TM that I so quickly recognized that I was thinking irrationality. Why would I become a "true believer" after only 2 hours?

I picked apart my reactions, and realized that what I had been reacting to had been the teacher's "charismatic" presentation. Here is what he did that won me over:

1. He appears absolutely sure of the truth of his knowledge.

2. His teaching encompassed sweeping areas of life (health, biology, movement, evolution, physiology, healing, the brain).

3. His teaching was internally consistent.

4. He promised us great things.
(fluidity of movement, no more aches and pains, healing of chronic injuries).

5. He backed up his promises both with fascinating anecdotes and with quotes from science.

6. He appeared knowledgeable about his competitors' products, and discredited them in a way both loving and condescending.

7. His teaching was original and off the beaten track.

8. His personality was attractive (a happy, warm man.)

9. He promised his technique would give me exactly what I longed for (relief from chronic pain and healthy aging.)

Put this all together, and it was so easy to take the internal steps from, "How nice if this were true," to "Wow, there is some evidence that this is true," to "This must be true. How lucky I am to have found it!"

Upon reflection, I could see how closely this brief experience paralleled my experience with Maharishi. Each of the qualities I experienced in this exercise teacher, I also experienced 40 years earlier in Maharishi:

1. Maharishi seemed absolutely convinced of the truth of his knowledge. No gray areas.

2. Maharishi's teachings encompassed physical, mental, emotional, social, financial, governmental, educational, philosophical and spiritual regeneration.

3. His teachings were internally consistent. (If you didn't dig too deep.)

4. He promised great things for us: enlightenment, having the support of nature and inner peace; and later he also promised us perfect health, immortality, and world peace.

5. He backed up his promises with endless fascinating anecdotes of people who he said had benefited from TM, as well as appeals based on scientific research.

6. He described what he said were the different types of meditations, and explained why his meditation technique was superior. He quoted scientific research to back it up.

7. His teaching was original and off the beaten track.

8. His personality was attractive (joyous, bubbly, happy).

9. He promised that his technique would give me exactly what I personally longed for (peace of mind, self-esteem.)

So it wasn't surprising that at the naive age of 19, I fell under the sway of Maharishi and his teachings.

What were your experiences of the persuasive powers of Maharishi?

As long as I'm talking about Maharishi's public appeal, I wanted to comment on Maharishi's physical appearance. It's ironic that TM teachers became known for looking "corporate" (business suits, clean shaven, etc.), - Maharishi had a strict dress code - because in fact, Maharishi looked like the quintessential "flower child." He had the long hair, flowing beard , beads, carried a flower, sandals or bare feet, sat cross-legged, talked about love. In fact, his only lapse was wearing a dhoti instead of blue jeans and a tie-dyed shirt! Which came first - Maharishi, with flower children emulating him? Or flower children, with Maharishi imitating them?

Friday, October 24, 2008

Book Review. The Relaxation Response by Herbert Benson M.D. with Miriam Z. Klipper

(NOTE TO READERS:

I originally published this book review on TMFree on October 15, 2008, but for some reason it has disappeared. So here it is again. - Laurie)


Published 1976 by William Morrow & Co., 181 pages.

Commentors and contributors have been recommending books on TM-Free Blog for some time now. I have recently read a few of those books, and thought you might enjoy some book reviews. This is my second review in
a series.

First, a little background information about this book, (from my memory, so a few facts may be off). About 1970, Herbert Benson M.D. (not a TMer) and Robert Keith Wallace (a TMer), then either a new M.D. or a post-graduate student writing his thesis, collaborated on research on the effects of TM. Theirs was the first scientific study on TM, and a long line of scientific studies on TM by them and others were to follow, now officially touted by the TM organizations as "over 600 scientific research studies, published in peer-reviewed journals, showing the benefits of the Transcendental Meditation program in all fields of life." (Skeptical and alternate TM websites have pointed out the inaccuracy of many of these studies.)

Benson's and Wallace's research focused on physiological changes in the subjects during the practice of TM itself, in areas such as blood pressure and oxygen consumption. All indices pointed to a state of reduced physical activation, or relaxation, yet wakefulness, a state they called "restful alertness." If my memory serves me, this first research project of Benson and Wallace was published in
approximately 1970 in The Lancet, a respected British medical journal.

These early experiments gave scientific standing to the heretofore esoteric practice of Transcendental Meditation. I remember that in the TM introductory lectures I attended in 1971, I and my friends were much impressed and influenced by this scientific validation.

As my friends and I got deeper into the TM world, Benson and Wallace were our secular "heroes" for the legitimacy they had given TM. The first crack I recall in this "love affair" was Benson's wistful comment that he now had so much evidence on the benefits of TM that he would love to do it himself, however he felt that if he learned TM his impartiality as a researcher would be compromised.

Some time after this, Benson made the leap to the theory that the state of "restful alertness" must be a physiologically imbedded state, and therefore be attainable through ways other than Transcendental Meditation. He then went on to theorize, study and research, and out of that came his book The Relaxation Response.

Benson studied many meditation, contemplation and prayer techniques from around the world and from many centuries, techniques developed by mystics, saints, nuns, monks, and so on from different spiritual traditions (Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Buddhism, etc.) and discovered that other teachings appeared to use similar techniques to TM and appeared to produce

similar results to TM.

When I was on my TM Teacher Training course back in 1974, I was taught contempt and condescension for all other techniques, which, Maharishi taught, were all completely different from - and inferior to - his Transcendental Meditation. (Please see my TM-Free Blog post, published 10/13/2008, "Book Review. The Maharishi: The Biography of the Man Who Brought Transcendental Meditation to the World by Paul Mason," where I describe how Maharishi isolated himself from all other traditions.) So, in reading The Relaxation Response in 2008, I was struck, humbled and shamed to see the obvious similarities between TM and techniques handed down by myriad traditions. One example, "dhikr," from the mystic Islamic tradition known as Sufism, will suffice to show the similarities. The instructional language is poetic with its emphasis on divine love and religious devotion, but the underlying technique is strikingly similar.

"Let [the practitioner] sit alone in some corner....Let him
not cease saying continuously with his tongue 'Allah, Allah,' [God, God,] keeping his thoughts on it. At last he will reach a state when the motion of his tongue will cease, and it will seem as though the word flowed from it. Let him persevere in this until all trace of motion is removed from his tongue, and he finds his heart persevering in the thought. Let him still persevere until the form of the word - its letters and shape - is removed from his heart, and there remains the idea alone, as though clinging to his heart, inseparable from it....If he follows the above course, he may be sure that the light of the Real will shine out of his heart."

I was struck by how much these instructions resemble the instructions I memorized on TM Teacher Training in 1974, on how to instruct someone in TM. Following the puja (ceremony), the TM teacher says, "Aem, aem, aem, aem," (or some other mantra, all of which are the names of gods). Teacher gestures to student to repeat the mantra. When the student is doing so, teacher gestures to the student to sit and continue repeating. When student does so, teacher says, "Close the eyes and continue....More quietly....More quietly....More quietly....Now, mentally, without moving tongue and lips....Slowly open the eyes. It's easy? Mental repetition is not a clear pronunciation. It's just a faint idea. Now close the eyes and continue...."


Benson determined that all these different techniques - including TM -
had four elements in common: (1) a quiet environment, (2) a mental device such as a word, phrase, object to be gazed at, etc., to be repeated in a specific fashion, (3) a passive attitude, in which ideation drifts into the mind, and one does not concentrate or be concerned with how well one is doing it, and (4) a comfortable position, but not a lying down one which might induce sleep.

After reviewing the similarity of various techniques. Benson studied subjects doing six different techniques that followed these four rules in order to see if they did indeed produce the same physiological results as TM. Benson tested subjects during the practice of TM, Zen and yoga, autogenic training, progressive relaxation, hypnosis with suggested deep relaxation, and sentic cycles for changes in oxygen consumption, respiratory rate, heart rate, alpha waves, blood pressure and muscle tension. The results were almost indistinguishable.

I can imagine the horror, disbelief and denial I would have experienced if I had read this book in 1974, after I became a TM teacher. I repeat the heresy: The results of the six techniques were almost indistinguishable from each other and from TM.

I do remember Benson's name fading from TM lectures after the the publication of this book. I remember what contempt and pity we TM teachers had for Benson for "betraying the movement." I remember never bothering to read his book until 2008. I remember hearing with triumph (and relief) that people who took up Benson's "relaxation response" technique were soon bored and gave it up, but we TMers found our experience fulfilling and kept at it. I remember one TM teachers saying dismissively, "Well, you get what you pay for."

This short, easy-to-read, down-to-earth book is food for thought, a "how-to" book on how to achieve the relaxation response, and also a useful tool for people wanting to take the next step in deprogramming themselves from the TM mindset
.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Book Review. My Father's Guru: A Journey through Spirituality and Disillusion by Jeffrey Moussaieff Masson. 1992, 174 pages.

From time to time, commentors and contributors to TMFree have suggested books that they have found relevant. I have recently read a few of them, and thought you might enjoy a few book reviews. This is the third in the series.

In 1947, when Jeffrey Moussaieff Masson was 6 years old, his father brought home "Dr." Paul Brunton, a soft spoken, mild mannered sweet little Englishman. Brunton, a minor author of "spiritual" literature in the early 20th century, was to become Masson Sr.'s guru for the next 19 years. During those years, "Brunton" (the name he gave himself) lectured, philosophized, led, cajoled, encouraged celibacy (leading to mental health problems in the family), supported fasting, advised, taught a form of meditation which brought no results but which the family nevertheless practiced for over a decade, inspired, instructed, lived with and sponged off the Masson family.

He was modest and disarming, underwhelming in appearance. He never took sexual advantage of his disciples, and he didn't always accept the large sums of money Mason Sr. offered him. But what he did do was claim to have a Ph.D., be a Sanskrit scholar, foresee the future, talk with higher beings, have a grand mission to save the human race, remember his past lives, be a sage, be from another planet, and to know the answer to all questions.

He invented a quasi Hindu/ Buddhist/ Theosophical system. He never admitted ignorance on any topic, secular or spiritual. If he didn't have an an answer, he would give a mysterious smile that seemed to say that he had secret knowledge that he was not at liberty to share, or alternately he would invent an answer.

Here are a few of his teachings (paraphrased), to give you a taste of what he offered.

On his powers: "Should you ever feel a hostile force, immediately kneel, then say very firmly, 'I command you in the name, by the power and compassion of Paul Brunton, to come out of my body.' Then make a sign of the cross...No evil force can withstand this."

On reincarnation: "All my incarnations were not on this planet. Life on other planets are inhabited by higher beings. They never come to visit us because we are not worthy."

On evolution: "Man did not evolve from the monkey. The race of apes came from a sexual union between primitive man and female beasts."

On his mission: "Buddha himself foresaw that a new teacher would arise within a few thousand years after himself...with a higher spiritual status than himself, within this current century."

On the family's financial problems: "Either earn more or spend less." (This said in a solemn, sage voice.)

On his teachings: "Any negative thought my disciples may have about this path, their guru and his powers are at best tests and at worst the work of external mischief-makers."

Jeffrey lived a double life. His normal-looking outside life consisted of school, extracurricular activities, friends, etc. Then there was the secret life he, his family, the other disciples and Brunton shared. Jeffrey never told his friends that there was a guru living in his house on and off for 19 years, that his family was specially favored by God, that his parents sometimes fasted for 40 days until they were skeletal, and that the only topics discussed in the house was spirituality and esoterica, filtered through Brunton's philosophy.

After 19 years, the family fell out with Brunton after he inaccurately predicted the imminent arrival of World War III and had his disciples pull up stakes in the U.S. and move to South America to avoid the coming radioactive fallout. Jeffrey made his own escape when adolescent independent thinking kicked in. He studied Sanskrit and Pali, and discovered that Brunton had lied about being a Sanskrit scholar, and that Buddha had never made any predictions about a guru appearing in the 20th century. He broke the family's "gentleman's agreement" of not asking Brunton embarrassing personal questions, forcing Brunton to reveal his inconsistencies. And he caught Brunton in a parlor trick which Brunton was perpetrating in order to convince his disciples that he had psychic powers.

I felt both horror and fascination as I read this book. What, I wondered, would make perfectly intelligent people give their minds, their money, and 19 years of their life to a person and a system so obviously flawed and fraudulent?
Here is some of what I theorize happened to the Masson family. Perhaps as Isaac Newton said, things in motion tend to remain in motion and things at rest tend to remain at rest. Objects continue on their paths until they are met with an immovable object. Continuing to believe in Brunton was the path of least resistance. Brunton combined the carrot and the stick - he appealed to his disciples' pride, desire to be special and to have esoteric wisdom, and to their fear of falling outside the loop of this charmed life. Also, Masson's family lived in a closed system - they socialized only with other disciples, who could reinforce each other's awe for Brunton. And maybe Jeffrey's family and Brunton got caught in a strange unconscious dance, where he craved to be admired and they craved a guru. He offered "proofs" of his specialness, which caused them to put him on a pedestal, and then to demand more extreme proofs of his specialness, which caused him to produce grander and more entrenched lies, until eventually Brunton himself may have come to believe his own lies. And, the longer the Masson family followed Brunton, the harder it became to admit that they had been hoodwinked.

Ever since I left the TM movement after 10 years in it, I have been asking myself how I could have totally believed a system so full of contradictions, and why I found it so hard to leave. An exit counselor once told me that a helpful tool in assisting a person to leave a cult is to educate them about a different cult. The objectivity that comes with distance makes it easy to see the craziness of the other group, and the cult member can then more easily spot the dysfunctional systems holding oneself hostage to ones own cult. As I ponder what held the Massons captive, I am struck by some of the parallels
with Maharishi and the TM movement. Maybe reading about this family will help others gain more insight into their own life journey and become a little more free.

Monday, October 13, 2008

Book Review. The Maharishi: The Biography of the Man Who Brought Transcendental Meditation to the World by Paul Mason

(Oops! I accidentally deleted this post today. So here it is again. Originally posted 10/11/2008.)

Over the years, many commentors and contributors to TM-Free Blog have recommended books that they have found relevant. I have recently read a few of those books, and thought you all might enjoy some book reviews.

The Maharishi: The Biography of the Man Who Brought Transcendental Meditation to the World, a 300-page book written by Paul Mason and published by Element Books Ltd. in 1994, provides an overview of Maharishi's life from the mid-1950's to about 1993. When I read this book, I was reminded of the saying, "If it looks like a duck, walks like a duck and quacks like a duck, the chances are good that it is a duck." Maharishi comes across as a simple, straightforward, not-too-deeply thinking salesperson intent on selling his product.

The book is rather moderate in tone, with a slightly jaundiced undertone, neither adoring or damning of Maharishi. The author matter-of-factly quotes Maharishi's many contradictory statements, leaving the readers to draw their own conclusions.

Of the many points Paul Mason covered, I found three to be of particular interest. The first
was Maharishi's "utter...isolat[ion] from comtemporary faiths and teachings," (p. 83.) Maharishi taught that all other gurus and teachers were misguided, and that he alone had the truth. Mason quotes Maharishi's writings from an uncompleted commentary to the Bhagavad Gita as follows, "Thus we find that all fields of religion and philosophy have been misunderstood for many centuries past."

Second, Mason shows that Maharishi's original intent was to spread a spiritual knowledge. In fact, his first organization was called the Spiritual Regeneration Movement. Quotes from Maharishi's early days give insight into his original teachings. For instance, "Between human species and these [gods are the]...finest levels of creation, the celestial level of life, gods. Huge numbers of...angels and gods," (p.162). By the early 1970's, however, Maharishi was saying, "In this scientific age we use scientific language," and spiritually-loaded language disappeared (for instance "God" was replaced with the term "Creative Intelligence") and his organizations were incorporated as educational non-profits. (Some time after the book was published, Maharishi did return to his religious roots and speak about more "spiritual" matters.)

An example of Maharishi's early comfort with revealing the spiritual basis of his teachings is in his pamphlet Beacon Light of the Himilayas, published about 1955. He wrote, "We do not select any sound like mike, flower, table...etc. For our practice we select only the suitable mantras of personal Gods. Such mantras fetch us the grace of personal Gods...."

Which leads to my third point, which is the ease with which Maharishi dissembled about the mantras, leaving me to wonder what else he lied about. In his early days, Maharishi stated, "Through long practice of usages of these mantras for different types of people, certain universal formulae have been obtained and using those formulae of judgment the selection of a proper mantra is brought about...." "[Mantras] are passed on from the master to the disciple in every generation and this is the teaching that concerns very fine levels of the whole creation...." "The tradition of masters is the most authentic place to take these suitable thoughts from. Authenticity from the tradition is the only measure which will give us some confidence about the absolute suitability of the mantra...." "One percent unsuitable effect [from the wrong mantra] will become million times greater...." After pages of this, Mason dryly drops the fact that the mantras are chosen by age.

Actually, Maharishi was not consistent in what mantras he gave to TM teachers. On one Teacher Training Course, he gave out one set of mantras to be chosen by age, on another course a different set of mantras to be chosen by age, on a third course a set to be chosen by age and sex, and so on.

Mason also includes anecdotes that leave the reader wondering what stories lie behind them. For instance someone mentions in passing that "Maharishi converses with the Heirarchy." What is "the Heirarchy"? A stranger in an airport in Europe accosts Maharishi with, "You're a fraud!" What did he mean? Jerry Jarvis, the onetime president of Maharishi's Students' International Meditation Society says, "Using the sutras [in the TM-Sidhis technique] is a strain on the nervous sytem and some people flip out." What had he seen?

This is not a comprehensive biography. At least two things are missing: the private life of Maharishi, and his impact on the life of others. Regarding his private life, for instance, there is no mention of his attempt to lead the Ouspensky organization in Europe, his sexual relations with women on his staff, his heart attack and subsequent (non-ayurvedic) treatment by western medicine, or his contempt for those who put him on a pedastal. Regarding his impact on the lives of others, there is no mention of the hundreds, myself included, who uprooted themselves and moved to Fairfield, Iowa at his bequest, or the hundreds of people who gave years of their lives, thousands of dollars and sometimes their mental and physical health to Mahrishi's dream.

On the plus side, this is a quickly-moving, easy-to-read book for people looking for an introduction to the life, mind, and public face of Maharishi Mahesh Yogi from aproximately 1954 to 1993.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Friday, April 04, 2008

UFOs & Enlightenment

Tons of my cult counseling clients, as well as commenters here, ask similar questions: "I had X experience. Was it valid? Where did it come from? Was it spiritual?

Some experiences reported to me (paraphrased to conceal identities):

  • "During puja on Teacher Training, I saw Guru Dev in the room."

  • "I witness sleep. Nothing much happens, I just am aware all night."

  • "Sometimes I suddenly wake up inside — even though I know I'm still sleep. It seems like I sit up, but when I look back, I see myself still sleeping. I can't move my body, but my 'spirit' floats around the room and I can look down from that point of view."

  • "Once on Teacher Training, shortly after we were given the TM-Sidhis, I was in an elevator with a fellow CP (course participant). All at once, I felt like I was going to lift off. There was energy tingling in my back, spreading out to my whole body. I looked at [the other guy] and I exclaimed, 'You're so beautiful!'" His face was ringed in flames. I felt a pressure growing in my forehead. Suddenly, it felt like a beam or ray shot out of my forehead at [my course mate]. He fell down! It seemed like the beam knocked him down. I felt like he and I were the same person. I couldn't tell if I was located in my body or his. I felt I could read his mind. This only lasted a minute or two, but for the rest of the evening it seemed like I was aware of him, wherever he was. I couldn't read his mind, but it seemed like I could tell what he was feeling. [My course mate] told me later that it seemed like he was knocked down by a force. He, too, felt like he could read my mind for a little while." (My personal experience.)

  • "One time when I was working as a receptionist, my boss came to complain about something I did. All of a sudden her face was filled with flowing flames — faint, but quite visible. It felt like the room was rushing into me. But her face floated before me. I must have looked weird because she asked me if I was alright."

  • "I dreamed of Patanjali. It wasn't like dreaming. It was real. He was in my bedroom explaining the Sutras to me. When I woke up, I felt wonderful. Like I knew secrets. My heart area was warm and tingly all day."

  • "I feel wild, rushing energy in my body sometimes. It's so intense, it almost hurts. It's like I'm having a full-body orgasm. It starts in my spine and spreads out through my whole body."

  • "I witness activity. I feel almost like there's two of me. There's the guy who's very present in the Relative, but I have the sense of another me, in the Absolute, who's just watching everything and everybody. And he's pretty amused by it all."

Frequently the next question they ask is, "Does that mean TM is real? It really works?"

I've heard dozens and dozens of similar stories. For years I've told people that I'm not in a position to judge these experiences. I'm not here to say that they aren't valid spiritual experiences. Nor am I certain they are.

If they have special meaning for you, cherish them.

There are possible explanations for them, however. Explanations that make sense from a rational, Western viewpoint. The visions may be sleep paralysis, mixed with hypnopompic or hypnagogic hallucinations ("waking dreams" experienced by millions who have never done Transcendental Meditation). After all, TTC pujas took place in warm, incensed-filled rooms, where we chanted Sanskrit softly. It wouldn't be outside the realm of reason for someone to fall into a dream that seemed real (a common experience for narcoleptics).

And visions are common for people meditating for hours a day. Zen, Tibetan Buddhist, and other meditators report these. It's possible that meditating so much makes one subject to dropping into REM states spontaneously — in which one could dream whatever is preoccupying your waking states the most. Which could be devotional or spiritual visions if you are watching 8 hours a day of the Maharishi talk about such things.

As to witnessing while awake, Western psychology has long described derealization and depersonalization experiences that can be encouraged by dissociation — at least one effect of meditation (trance).

But explaining these experiences rationally very rarely seems to satisfy my clients. What they are overwhelmed by is the "specialness" and reality of the experiences.

Like the Maharishi, I suggest they not get hung up on unusual experiences. (He couldn't have been wrong about everything!) Don't consider them to be proof that TM works — or that they are special people because they had them.

UFOs do exist. They are unidentified flying objects — nothing more. That doesn't mean that the are from another planet. We just don't know what they are.

Likewise, I'm of the opinion that we just don't know what these experiences are. Anyway, are weird hallucinatory experiences spiritual? Maybe they are just what they are. Weird and unexplained.

I have my own questions: Do these experiences improve our lives? Do they make us better persons? Love God more? Treat our fellows with more respect? Do our jobs better?

In all the spiritual traditions that I'm aware of, those are the hallmarks of increased spirituality. Everything else just may be weird fireworks.

John M. Knapp, LMSW
http://KnappFamilyCounseling.com/

Saturday, April 21, 2007

Poll on Reader's Spirituality

How do you practice spirituality now?
I do TM as my only spiritual practice.
I do TM and another spiritual practice.
I follow the religion I was brought up in only.
I do TM plus the religion I was brought up in.
I no longer do TM or any other spiritual practice.
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Wednesday, April 11, 2007

The Stages of Faith

Many TMers claim to be avidly "Spiritual."
Leaving the Movement may create a spiritual void.
This is a common experience when leaving a religiously based cult.

Some might find the following essay of interest - M. Scott Peck's analysis of personal spiritual development.

Peck is known for many writings including "The Road Less Traveled," "People of the Lie,"
"Abounding Grace an Anthology of Wisdom" and others.

The Stages of Faith that every victim of a destructive religious cult should know!

By M. Scott Peck, M.D.
Abridged by Richard Schwartz

Monday, February 26, 2007

a consideration of the yoga sutras (1)

The yoga-sutras (the Yoga Darshana) opens with the word ATHA, now.

This can have several meanings such as "now listen up", but two meanings seem important to consider: now without any preparation and now as the result of preparation.

I spent approximately 10 years, sometimes on and off, translating, word-for-word, the text that is available to us today. I noticed two things, that the 4th section seems to have a slightly different Sanskrit syntax from the first three sections and, probably more important, the text contains its own commentary. For example, the second sutra explains the word yoga found in the first sutra.

If you look carefully, and there are some really excellent translations available such as Taimni's, Prasada's, Deshpande's and the on-line translation by Chip Hartranft (http://www.arlingtoncenter.org/yogasutra.html) to name just some of the one's I have found useful, you will notice that the internal commentary is fairly easily separated from what was possibly the source text.

Obviusly, yogi's learning their trade probably didn't need the added explanations because that's what the teacher was teaching them; but later generations might have not had this benefit and thus something like footnotes were added. And then the 4th section and maybe then the two sets of highly confusing commentaries about which Boja Raj lamented that they said it was easy when it was not and not easy when it was.

So ATHA ... you can start now, or you can read the text many times as preparation to a deep understanding and, especially, practise of what is contained. But, of course, you always have to listen up.

So, what I intend to do is write about some of the things I learned from the Sutras themselves. The first thing being that what Mahesh teaches is not supported by the Sutras, but that's a long story and over the coming days/weeks I'll try to illustrate the areas that I feel support this contention.

a consideration of the yoga sutras (2)

Monday, February 19, 2007

Do TMers Have Real Spiritual Experiences?

An important question. And one I believe readers must answer for themselves. I know that I experienced things I can't explain, but which appeared to meet the criteria for spiritual experiences as related in the Indian scriptures.

But I also know that the Transcendental Meditation Orgs – and their master, the Maharishi Mahesh Yogi – consistently fail to live up to the simplest spiritual truths of Christianity, Judaism, Islam, even Hinduism.

This remains a mystery to me. Please take a moment to share your thoughts on this topic by clicking on "Comments" below.

[A] bad guru can be extremely good for a sincere devotee…. It's the main reason so many bad gurus do good business. They are merely idols upon which sincere devotees project their own divinity, with sometimes seemingly miraculous results.
        --Jody R, Guruphiliac Blog

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Mantras Part 4: unstressing, feeling the body and beyond

Mantras Part 1
Mantras Part 2: Some thoughts preliminary to an examination of the mechanics of TM
Mantras Part 3: the makings of the “TM Casualties” or what colour is your cloth becoming?


There is a significant difference between what Mahesh said (“For our practice we select only the suitable mantras of personal Gods.”) and understanding the concept that some things are endowed with spiritual significance. To endow a thing with spiritual or religious significance does not change the thing in any way. What changes is attitude on the part of those who subscribe to the endowment.

Mahesh clearly endowed his actions/teachings and "vision" with spiritual and religious significance and cultured that attitude in us. Remember The Spiritual Regeneration Movement ?

Unstressing

When bizarre behaviour began to erupt at Mallorca, Mahesh called it waves of bliss. He said something good was happening. He didn’t teach that the experience was just another experience and we were to experience the feeling until it resolved itself.

From my side, I see "unstressing" as the body-mind experiencing a crisis, cognitive dissonance in opposition to which it cannot restore its integrity: body and mind feel like they are coming apart and behaviours beyond will-power or aside from what one had previously considered her/his will-power display themselves. I think that many of us accepted Mahesh in toto rather than resolve a crisis.

Feeling the Body

Many of us were there, saw it, even experienced it. The checking notes as they appear on line now (Checking Notes or General Points) give excellent if somewhat inconsistent teaching regarding untoward experiences arising in meditation. But were these "general points" in the checking notes at the time? I would very much appreciate knowing if anyone has the checking notes from Mallorca or prior to Mallorca and could tell me or preferably show me how the understanding of "feeling the body" was taught.

I only remember a conversation with Jerry Jarvis, prior to Mallora. He said that 'it' probably shouldn't be called feeling the body but should be called continuing. At the time, however, this concept seemed a very minor consideration.

I do not ever recall any time when Mahesh explained "feeling the body" as anything integral or as a necessary element to know or practise with as part of long periods of rounding. I can recall no mention of feeling-the-body as a "stitch in time". Regarding the horrendous freak-out that was Mallorca and (to a lesser extent) Fiuggi, apparently very few if any others remembered or knew or thought about this, either.

Beyond

I knew that I was really seeking something.

In a story Ramakrishna* told, he said that the seeker is like a thief in the night, he slips into the darkened house, touches this and that always muttering not the gold, not the gold. But when his hand feels the gold, he knows, he grasps it and is immediately gone into the night.

In some way, I knew I was in the darkened house of ignorance and TM really had the feel of gold. Maybe it might have been just that; but much later I discovered that Mahesh was corrupted by his own greed and narcissism subsequently corrupting not only what he had purloined from his tradition and teacher, but those he taught as well. This is my perception to this day, based upon my interaction with Mahesh and observing his interaction with others.

But just because I had been hoodwinked by a charlatan whose motives I felt were highly suspicious, I did not cease seeking. I kept looking for the gold and now I feel I have found that gold and have been examining it in the broad daylight, questioning practitioners and teachers alike, watching, observing, certainly looking for the behaviours and attitudes with which TM allowed me to be familiar. I am also looking at criteria such as Lifton’s to see if I am being cheated. I wish I could have done this from the beginning with TM.

I have continued the search that began in the spring of 1964. I can only conclude at this time that there is much more to life than TM. There is more than imagining that if you believe something good is happening long enough something good will happen. There is more to life than imagining you have been spiritually endowed by using the suitable mantras for personal gods.

I am a Buddhist presently practicing in the Thai Forest Tradition of Theravada Buddhism. I have no intention of suggesting that this is better than or superior to what Mahesh or Guru Dev is teaching/taught. However, if you are or feel you might be or might have been a TM casualty, you might want to look at “feeling the body” as explained in the Buddhist teachings.

If, and only if after considerable reflection on your part you feel that this is a step, endeavour or exercise you feel confident in making read through The Anapanasati Sutta – A Practical Guide to Mindfulness of Breathing and Tranquil Wisdom and/or The Satipatthana Sutta.

I am suggesting nothing easy. But, if you will, notice that the teaching begins with following the breath and letting mind and body become calm. Do you remember from the checking procedure how, before any mention of mantra, after opening and closing the eyes, you felt some quiet and calm, just naturally?

Did you realize anything or ever think about this?

You already knew how to be calm and quiet. It is my opinion that Mahesh’s teachings beyond establishing this insight is nothing more than a distraction from that calm and quiet, sidestepping the only meaningful reality, your own innate, knowable reality.

How can there possibly be any other basis for happiness in the world than knowing your own specific reality?

Cultivating this calm-and-quiet is the object of the Anapanasati Sutta. The method and teaching above (A Practical Guide) has been extremely helpful for me and I feel that if it is only read as an explanation it is helpful to understand the concept of mindfulness in the Buddhist tradition.

Further, in the The Satipatthana Sutta, we read how the Buddha established mindfulness in four REALITIES, the primary four realities of the individual, the person, YOU.

The first foundation is, basically, feeling the body, getting settled in and comfortable with your own physical reality just as it is. Little by little, as the impediments to mindfulness come up, they are skillfully abandoned.

I want to leave off with the advice of Padmasambhava**, an 8th century CE Tibetan teacher, who summarized his advice on spiritual development like this:

As for the innermost advice: no matter what kind of disturbing emotion you feel, look into the emotion and it tracelessly subsides. The disturbing emotion is thus naturally freed. This is simple to practice.

This is for me the gold and legitimate teachers share this innermost advice but do not sell it.

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* Ramakrishna late 19th Century Indian saint living in the Bengal
** Padmasambhava’s Advice from the Lotus-Born (‘Pointing the Staff at the Old Man’)

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Welcome, Paul Mason!

TM-Free Blog is very pleased to welcome our newest editor/author, Paul Mason.

Paul is best known for his well-received biography, The Maharishi: the Biography of the Man Who Gave Transcendental Meditation to the World. Paul brings a new perspective to TM-Free Blog with his wealth of knowledge about the Maharishi, and a particular interest in the actual teachings of "Guru Dev," the Maharishi's purported master, Swami Brahmananda Saraswati.

We look forward to his contributions contrasting the Maharishi's teaching with traditional Indian spiritual thought -- including Guru Dev's known teachings. Paul also joins several of our editors in honoring the tradition of meditation, while steadfastly questioning the Maharishi's methods, policiies, and actions.

Please join us in welcoming this exciting new editor on our Blog!

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Mantras Part 3: the makings of the “TM Casualties” or what colour is your cloth becoming?

The TMO (TM Organization) has been careful to ignore and cover up the problem of casualties: such things as loss of mental stability, depression, suicide, bankruptcy (in the effort to buy the next greatest course rumoured to be the next greatest course), burgeoning drug use amongst its children, neglect of children in favour of “program” and so on.

Yet, we know people who did TM, got checked regularly, did or tried to do all the courses but crashed, burned and were simply invisible on the radar of Movement.

Of course, we also know people with varying degrees of success (as described by Mahesh and the TMO).

In the end, it seems only one thing can be said about TM: results vary.

Why?

On one level, TM is no different from any other practise or endeavour in which large numbers become involved. If Mahesh chooses to only notice the “good news” brought to him by his tail-wagging sycophants and on that basis believes that “his” meditation is some universal good, that tells us much more about Mahesh than it does “his” meditation.

In Part 2, I questioned Mahesh’s primary statement about “his” method and mantras. Any ordinary word, he said, would only “merely sharpen the mind”. But to make a stronger case for himself/”his” method, he said, “for our practise we select only the suitable mantras of personal Gods. Such mantras fetch to us the grace of personal Gods and make us happier in every walk of life.”

We might wonder how this is not religious or why he said something very different in the West.

I am very much indebted to Paul Mason (author of the 'The Maharishi') for editorial comments and for sharing with me his excellent analysis regarding what Guru Dev apparently taught, what Mahesh initially did with it and then simply ignored any kind of obligation he might have had toward Guru Dev and his own Hindu heritabe by “masking” his religious teaching as a meditation method based on ‘meaningless sounds’.

(see http://www.paulmason.info/gurudev/gurudev.htm and the contents of 'Beacon Light of the Himalayas' http://www.paulmason.info/gurudev/Beacon.htm. See also the Blog more about "techniques")

The Images

Mahesh used two images which, I am sure, are familiar to all TMers: the image of dipping-the-cloth and the bubble diagram.

The bubble diagram purports to explain that since thoughts arise and come to our attention on the “surface” of the mind, the gross awareness, we should therefore be able to follow a specific thought backwards, to the source of thought.

We accepted that as factual.

But, is it?

Then, we accepted as factual that a specific thought, not just any thought, but a specifically chosen personal (meaningless sound), would do just this, dissolve into the source from which all thought arises.

Is this factual?

What would the source of thought look like? If we found it, how would we know. The answer seemed to be you just would.

Then we learned that no thought and no mantra (personal meaningless sound), an after-the-fact experience, was just that, pure consciousness, the source of thought.

Was it?

A Sideways Look at Things, a different perspective:

This is how I think the bubble diagram and the dipping-the-cloth image can be explained and account for some TM casualties. Since no blanket explanation can be made about the effects of TM because so many different people have had so many different experiences, results and so on, I will try, here, to explain just one possible result of the TM method and meaningless sound:

(1) When you just sit and think a thought, you notice that it leads to other thoughts which in turn lead to other thoughts. I do not think it is possible to think one and only one thought for any prolonged period. It certainly is not possible to think the mantra and only the mantra because it is very clearly laid out in the checking procedure that when we realize we are “off” the mantra, we come back to it as easily as we notice any thought.

You can check http://www.trancenet.net/ or http://minet.org/checktoc.html for the precise wording of the checking notes.

(2) What were you doing when you noticed you were “off” the mantra? Were you daydreaming? Were the daydreams clear or were you unable to recall what the mind was experiencing?

(3) OR, and especially after some familiarity with the practice, were the daydreams much muzzier than your usual daydreaming? Have you noticed that this kind of experience/daydreaming tends toward long absences from memory?

Since so many people have so many different experiences and few if any have the same experience repeatedly, I want to talk about just this one possibility: muzzy disconnected daydreaming becoming increasingly gossamer until there was a blank spot. – This is where I think TM leads, to a bleary, disjointed, ephemeral experience of increasingly vague, insubstantial daydreaming until (that other image) dipping the cloth becomes complete.

Dipping-the-cloth

Sometimes, this takes a long, long time, sometimes, not. Some might and some might not remember the process; BUT on teacher training courses in the past and I suspect ‘sidha’ experience today, the vague and wooly experience (dipping yourself into the dye of no meaning and no memory) gets speeded up. The cloth (that’s you) becomes more and more the state of vagueness and less and less a “merely” sharp mind.

Just what colour was he impregnating your cloth with, anyway!

As I did not like the way rounding made me feel, I didn’t do much of it, so at the peak of rounding, when Mahesh told the assembled pie-eyed believers that only he could love them, that no one could love them as he could, I was just a little shocked; I became more taken aback as he clarified that neither mother nor father could love you as he could. He kept at this theme for some time. The assembled were malleable, supple in the hands of an expert at indoctrination (of course, I only recognized this for what it was much, much later). So many of us had dipped-the-cloth to the point of total surrender; no wonder he didn’t want us to make any new decisions on the course, he wanted us to accept his decisions, he wanted us to leave no room for any but his decisions, the permanent dye of his thinking.

My interpretation of mantras/meaningless sounds used in the intimate way of Mahesh’s meditation

The mantra does NOT draw the mind into finer and finer levels of thought until it reaches the “bottom” or the source of thought. Rather, the mantra takes the awareness, the mind, the thinking process sideways into a vague state of daydreaming and disconnect from meaningfulness where no clear perception or clear thought can be formed.

What else can a meaningless thought do? Mahesh told his Indian audience about personal gods and suitable mantras for those gods but then later taught that the mantras were meaningless.

Which is it?

Was he saying Guru Dev was wrong? Did he know better than the teacher to whom he pretends such devotion? Or was he simply modeling our future behaviour toward himself?

Words with no attached meaning ARE meaningless and meaning does not arise from meaninglessness. But if you are sufficiently saturated with the colour of TM, the colour of rounding, the colour of imagining you can fly – then how easy would it be to insinuate an idea that seemed completely meaningful i.e. that by repeating the mantra one would discover blissfulness, heaven on earth!

A simple experiment:

(after you read this)

Sit and close your eyes and say/think/ponder some word over and over; just that word, over and over, some word you understand, some particular word you know the meaning of.

What happens?

If you keep doing it you notice that it becomes nonsense. The sound and the meaning detach from one another. There’s just this very strange sound that does not have the sense it had when you started.

Now notice: do you get intellectually sharper doing this, or do you feel slightly spacey? – Ask yourself very carefully how different is “just any word” and your personally selected meaningless sound?

Only you can answer. Obviously experiences may vary.

Suppose that you undertake to do this experiment 2x20 (twice each day for twenty minutes each time) and go on a teacher training course where you do this 4x20 twice morning and twice afternoon). Suppose, given the fun of group meditation and suchwhat you do this 4x30 or 4x45 ? On the teacher training courses I attended the “rounding” escalated to 4 morning rounds and 4 afternoon rounds.

Now the ‘sidhi’ program requires something near 4 hours morning and afternoon. In the early days before the ‘sidhi’ program, Mahesh only encouraged 2x20, but when he surveyed an ATR for which I was course-leader, everyone was doing AT LEAST 45 to 50 minute meditations! He didn’t have a hissy fit, he didn’t get angry, he didn’t do anything.

Apparently no response is assent.

Dipping-the-cloth. Whose colour was your dye?

The more you dip into the TM pool, the Maheshism pool, the more easily it is to disconnect from meaning and clarity and get comfortable with that spacey feeling where no meaningful thinking is taking place … do you remember “the mind goes in the direction of more and more”? That is a definition of greed and craving; but Mahesh wanted you to think that more and more meant encountering the “source of thought”, the “field of all possibilities”.

If Mahesh brought anything to the west, it was the super fast-drying dye-job of Maheshism.

I am firmly convinced that when Mahesh said the nature of the mind is to go in the direction of more and more, what he knew was that the more you became absorbed in that spacey realm of the unclear and purposeless, the more easily you simply accepted every word he said, bought into every new course, concept and product, made every effort to attend every program.

Just consider those moments you thought of as no thought, no mantra – might they have been blackouts, periods when you were not there! Might you have been in some hypnotic frame of mind, open to suggestion?

Meaninglessness takes the awareness sideways.

The more you willingly participate in the super fast-drying dye-job of Maheshism, the more sideways, dissociated, disconnected, purposeless your mental function becomes. The more you readily believe the magical thinking of Maheshism, the more willingly you participate and tell others.

Remember when Mahesh said again and again on your teacher training course “we do not make any decisions on teacher training”? He wanted you to get the full benefit of what you were being exposed to: the disconnect nature of your own mental processes which he told you was the source of thought. You were being shepherded from your colour to his preference.

You don’t have to give this any further thought if you truly and sincerely believe you are getting or have gotten your money’s worth from TM. Many are firmly convinced they are truly blessed by all that is Mahesh and TM. But if you have doubts, you might want to consult with http://www.suggestibility.org/.

Mantras Part 1
Mantras Part 2: Some thoughts preliminary to an examination of the mechanics of TM
Mantras Part 4: unstressing, feeling the body and beyond

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Sex & the Single Guru [REALLY Long] revised

In support of Joseppi's personal story about the Maharishi's trashing of his vows of celibacy, below we repost a file from the Yahoo Group, Fairfield Life.

Note: I have edited the post below at the request of an individual involved. This individual objected to certain factual errors—as well as concern that family might read it.

In publishing this document, readily available on the Internet, it was not my intent to harm the individuals involved. My focus was on what I consider to be highly hypocritical behavior by a man who urged celibacy on his followers, going so far as to say full enlightenment was not possible without strict life-long celibacy.

Namely, the Maharishi.

I deeply apologize to any individuals who felt harmed by this post. If you were directly involved in the incidents or emails I posted, please feel free to email me to discuss edits that make you more comfortable.



In a BBC Interview in 1969 (http://www.bbc.co.uk/bbcfour/audiointerviews/profilepages/maharishi1.shtml), Maharishi said he took vows to renounce worldly life because that was the traditional understanding he came from, but that he has since discovered that spiritual life does not require giving up worldly life, only that one meditates regularly, morning and evening. He apparently applied this discovery to his own life, as there is ample evidence that throughout most of 1960’s and early 1970’s, he was sexually active with a number of young women, while still proclaiming publicly that he was a life celibate. The following is a compilation of information regarding these sexual activities. Some of these accounts come directly from one of the women involved. Others come from men who served as Maharishi’s personal secretaries, and who often escorted women to and from his room late at night. Excerpts from email conversations between former personal secretaries Rob McCutchean, Ned Wynn, and Casey Coleman, are sprinkled throughout the following text. The full text of these emails is included at the end of this document. Still other accounts come second or even third hand from people who spoke with one or another of the women, or a friend of one of them. Any one of these latter accounts, in isolation, could easily be dismissed, but taken together, from different times and places, they tend to reinforce each other. An attempt has been made to put this information in chronological order. Reportedly, two of the women (Jennifer and "Amy") are collaborating on a book, which they intend to publish after Maharishi dies.

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The earliest account comes from the end of Chapter 13 of the book "Call No Man Master," by Joyce Collin-Smith, which can be downloaded for free from http://www.isleofavalon.co.uk/joyce.html. The section on MMY starts with Chapter 9 and the whole book is an interesting read. The time frame referred to in the last paragraph of the following excerpt is the early 1960’s, soon after MMY came to England, during which the author was his personal assistant:

"Around this time something came out in the news that was completely astonishing to me. Lennon suddenly denounced Maharishi in a press conference in the USA, partly on the grounds that he apparently had a considerable sex life.

"There was a big hullabaloo about him trying to rape Mia Farrow and a few other women, and things like that", he said. "We stayed up all night discussing, was it true or not? We went to see Maharishi, the whole gang of us, the next day. I was the spokesman. I said: "We're leaving." He gave me a look like: 'I'll kill you, you bastard'. I knew then, because he gave me such a look, I had called his bluff."

Although there is a tradition of religious eroticism in India, Maharishi came from a celibate line of spiritual brothers, who deny the body and have few physical needs. When we first knew him he ate little, slept little, wore little clothing against the cold, had few possessions. He seemed all Spirit, all Light. I don't think any of us who were around him then and looked after him, ever associated him in our minds with sexuality. He did not touch us, we did not touch him. He was as unsexy as a young child.

Yet, once the gossip began, some of us started to cast our minds back, and to see for the first time the significance of a period when he first began locking his door in the afternoons, closeted alone with one young woman or another. Although the hypnotic influence seemed to have kept us unaware of what was going on at the time - we thought him to be giving 'special tuition' to chosen devotees - we now realized something different. There was a certain wide-eyed, fair-skinned type of girl to whom the dark-skinned Indian is frequently attracted. We now saw something he had intended to conceal. He had departed from the Holy Tradition of his Masters as worldly needs had gradually got a hold on him."

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From a businessman on the East Coast:

I have a friend in this area whose wife told my wife and me a story recently. She said her initiator, an English woman, with whom she was very close over a period of years, was with Maharishi in the early days and was acting as a personal assistant to him. She helped him with his personal things in his room, etc. Maharishi had her massage him and then asked her to massage him in a sexual way. I don't know more details since at the time when we were having dinner in a restaurant she didn't want to talk more about it. I really would like to get the more complete story, including the initiator’s name, which I heard but don't remember. I'd like to get all the facts straight. However she made it abundantly clear that she was positive that Maharishi got or attempted to get sexual with this woman, and that she had the utmost confidence that her initiator/friend told her the truth.

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Conny Larsson was MMY's secretary in the early 70's and later spent years with Sai Baba. Conny is Swedish; hence the funny grammar. Here is a letter he sent to his friend David, who became an initiator on an early Rishikesh course:

Dear David.

I have information about MMY of the kind that supports your exposé stories that are going around, but I have promised the lady that you even know well to be silent until she has decided how to handle her situation since she already has been targeted out by the TM-organization and also slandered by the groups around the expose of MMY.

She was for very long a close partner to MMY in all ways but loved him immensely and does not want to hurt him now when he is so old. He will of course not live so many years more and she is therefore writing her book to told as a first hand story. This will be given out after MMY has left his body, till then she is silent.

I myself was so very stupid and innocent in the beginning of me being an MMY-secretary or skin boy, but I couldn't miss wondering since I was the night boy all the girls that came when I was finished with the massage at around 2-3.00 in the morning.

He then used to call one girl every now and then and I always thought he was dictating a letter or something in the middle of the night. The girls that came last in the night never looked happy when she came out from the 30 minutes audience but never thought of it to be a pleasure or sexual meeting.

Knowing what I now know I feel just embarrassed that my Master didn't stand up for his sexual lust or love to women. That would have been perfectly OK with me anyhow. But to hide and lie and create an M-group that I and many other boy belonged to was just a soap opera I now think.

Jemima Pitman knew it all the time, but she was so in love with a [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] Professor and MMY let this pass just in front of his eyes without doing anything even if the professor was married and had children.

In service and duty

Conny

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Another one from Conny

Dear David!

Regarding MMY's guilt, he is all aware of it, for one day after a great f**k on the roof of his villa under the moonlight and in the protection of the mosquito-net he called for Tatwalababa, the naked yogi, for his protection and for his cleansing of the ashram, this was what he explained to the lady he f**ked with. They loved each other for years. Look at the group-picture from one of your photos which MMY did in Rishikesh when you where there, you are in the picture and so are MMY and the women he loved and f**ked with for several years.

So he knows and what he does with peoples' money is not of any interest to me.

Everything will come out in the end of this year or in the beginning of next year when my book is published, it is in two parts and the first part is only missing one chapter right now. It’s done in a month or so. 400 pages in each. but it has already hit Sweden since I have read some part of it on the Radio. You see in Sweden today I'm a well-known man even if I'm not that loved as I wanted to be, due to my uttermost frankness. I can't stand lies and I can't let people step on the poor or weak, and Jesus, that gives me enemies from high and low, but I don't care since I don't need them for my survival.

Well dear friend, write me soon again, I'm very happy to have connected again.

Love

Conny

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Most of us first heard of MMY's alleged sexual interests in the Rolling Stone interview with John Lennon in the spring of 1970. John's friend 'Magic Alex' had heard rumors about Maharishi, and convinced John that he was going around propositioning all the young ladies, and was only interested in the Beatles for their money. When they questioned him about it, he feigned innocence and asked them why they were leaving, to which John replied: "If you're so cosmic, you'll know why." He later recalled that: "There was this big hullabaloo about him trying to rape Mia Farrow or somebody and trying to get off with a few other woman and things like that. We went to see him after we stayed up all night discussing whether it was true or not. When George started thinking it might be true, I thought well, it must be true; because if George started thinking it might be true there must be something in it." TM loyalists concluded that Lennon was unstressing and that Mia Farrow misinterpreted whatever it was MMY did. In her book "A Twist of Lennon," Cynthia Lennon defended Maharishi, saying that Magic Alex had made up the story to try to get the Beatles away from Maharishi. The book "Beyond Gurus," by Nancy Cooke de Herrera offered a similar theory.

Here is Ned Wynn's account (Ned was MMY’s personal secretary in Mallorca):

Yes, I had direct contact with Mia and a very clear and direct conversation with her regarding MMY's advances. She told me (and Nini White Winquist) that MMY got her alone in his pad at Rishikesh, put his arms around her and tried to get her to lie down with him. She was confused for about three seconds then she jumped up, ran out, told Paul and John and some other people, then she took off for Goa. She said that MMY had her followed for weeks by some of his brahmacharis. She was actually scared of them. She said it was clear he wanted her to engage in sex with him. I didn't believe her at first because I had the proto-Fairfield disease. But clearly, she was telling me the truth. After all, this was the chick that married Frank Sinatra. Like, she didn't know when some guy was making a move? Duh!

Ned

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From a former member of the Purusha program:

It started like this: I was sitting after a retreat, and we were talking about the integrity of Gurus (or lack thereof), and I was saying that at least I was confident that my former Guru, MMY, was clean as far as sex goes. One woman challenged me, and said that she knew of a woman who could tell a different story. I asked her to tell me who that woman was; she said she could not, as that woman certainly did not want anyone to know a thing about it. I said, please can you contact that woman and ask her if she would talk to me, as this would be very important for me to know, having spent so many years with the assumption that my Guru was clean that way. She said she would call that woman and ask her.

After about an hour, a woman whom I had known well, and who had known very well about my involvement with Maharishi and my respect and love for him, came up to me and said, "I heard that you wanted to talk to me". I said I did not know what it was about, that I did not ask to talk to her. But then I understood, that this was the woman who had some experience with Maharishi. I was very surprised, because she never told me that she knew Maharishi.

She was among a group of young college students who went to hear Maharishi when he came to Australia in the late sixties. It is possible that this is before the Beatles were involved, I don't know. Anyway, at one point Maharishi was flying somewhere with Divendra, to a different town, and he asked a few of them (all young girls, interestingly enough) to join him. Which they did, happily. He had given his talk there and flew back, with them in the plane. They then accompanied him to the hotel. At one point he turned to that woman and told her - "come, I'll give you my love". She was not sure what it meant, but she did not respond. She thought, "no, it could not be what I think it is". And she let it slide, dismissing any thoughts about it.

Although she did not consider herself a disciple of Maharishi, she went to hear him talk a year later. Again, after the lecture he invited her to come with him, and repeated his enigmatic offer. She said she was curious what he meant, and accompanied him to his room. She said he hugged her and kissed her - and that her thought at the time was that he did not know anything about women and very inexperienced. She said she felt very flattered - she was 19 or so - and confused. And she asked him, "but are you not a monk?" And he let go, and smiled, and said yes, I am a monk. I don't remember how the conversation continued between them.

However, she was very careful to say: 1. That nothing actually transpired (i.e., she never went to bed with him) 2. He was very gentle, he did not try to force her into anything.

She described his room with quite some detail, and I could satisfy myself that at least she was in his bedroom (with the Puja set and all that). As for how reliable she is, I have no idea.

I asked her why she wanted to be so secretive about it. She said, that she did not want to make people who innocently following him disillusioned about him. She said, that she would have never told me anything about it, had I not asked for it in the say that I did. I am not 100% sure what her motivations for hiding the story are, maybe there's more to it than she was willing to say. But anyway, you have it now.

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from Conny’s friend David:

Hello, working my way through it all. I intend trying to make contact with Linda W She gave an interview in 1977 with a South African newspaper of how MMY told her not to have hang-ups about sex and then screwed her. Young, attractive English girl at the time, probably 1970.

I think it would be a pity if the story only broke AFTER his death. Not necessary for punishment reasons but so he can deal with it in whatever way he wants. I really believe we need to deal with our secrets. It is part of growth. Also I think people who still devote their lives to TM and the Organization deserve the chance to rethink. I know of people who devoted most of their life to this. People who probably turned down the chances for a sexually fulfilled relationship or some glory in the outer world. This might have caused some hardship. I don't like the idea of people scrimping and saving to do expensive courses and yagyas and have the fun channeled into folly, fantasy and family members.

My own position is really clear to me. I had a wonderful time around him and enjoyed him and his teachings. I feel no need personally to bring him down. My memories are all positive. I quit before things turned really sour. Thus I have benefited from my contact with him and feel warm to him because of that. I hold precious many experiences that came from my TM meditations. Thus I take a very neutral position in this debate. Except I would love to know WHY! Though I doubt whether he will ever openly and fully discuss it. As the Beatles said, as far as sexual things went, it appears true he was just a man.

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Jennifer’s story:

At the end of TTC (the 1st course in Majorca) MMY asked Jennifer, Jennifer's brother and about 5 others to go to England to give TM intros. After their time in England MMY asked them to return to Spain. They did so for a short while, at which time Jennifer's brother returned to the U.S. to the west coast.

MMY asked Jennifer to stay in Europe. She did, not knowing what MMY had in mind. Several of MMY's staff, including Jennifer and MMY, were on an outing in a car. They stopped for lunch. Jennifer didn't go in to the restaurant and MMY decided not to go in also.

While outside MMY was talking to her and by the look he was giving her, it was "obvious" to Jennifer what he wanted. She fell under his spell, and so the affair began.

It lasted for at least a couple of weeks. While it was going on, "Amy" and April approached Jennifer, for they saw what was happening, and told Jennifer that she would be just one of numerous women that MMY had already had. This caused Jennifer to flee.

She said that one night while leaving MMY's room Devendra saw her and shook his head, suspecting what was going on. This would explain why he went back to India before MMY went to Switzerland.

MMY gave her "a lot" of money, all in Spanish currency, in hopes of keeping her from leaving. She said Jerry Jarvis delivered the package of money to her. She said, "He was really 'pissed' at having to do it".

She went to Switzerland, fleeing from MMY's people who were looking for her. Here she called her brother in the TM center in Oregon. She was crying, explaining some details of the affair with MMY.

Here are some recent comments from Jennifer:

Someone asked: "How can a man around whom women must not show an inch of skin, for whom celibacy is such a core espoused value, and about whom Larry Domash once said that he never thinks for even one moment about anything other than helping the world, fall into such a pit?"

Jennifer responded:

The thing I find interesting about his whole discussion are the allegations that "Amy" and I might be lying. Actually if you read the stories carefully, what the men knew is all that they should have known-they got me from my room-MMY asked for me. I have not told any story yet. I did talk to Ned, but his memory is not complete. Jane, his former wife, was very dear to me. I have no incentive to lie. In fact, my brother and his wife were just coming to Spain to join the MMY insiders when I decided to run away. I had to call them and tell them what had happened and why I needed to leave. April, who helped me leave the course, was sent home when MMY found out she gave me money to leave and drove me to the airport. She later died in a plane crash with Joe Clarke and someone else when they were looking for property for the University. The phone calls from MMY to me in Switzerland were overheard by a number of people and interestingly, I posed the question to MMY that he poses in his email: "How can a man around whom women must not show an inch of skin, for whom celibacy is such a core espoused value, and about whom Larry Domash once said that he never thinks for even one moment about anything other than helping the world, fall into such a pit?" Only not in the exact same words, of course.

Someone asked:

How did MMY answer this question? Do you feel that MMY ever did any real soul searching over his behavior?

Jennifer responded:

Yes he did-earlier. A young man died on our course in Mallorca. I recall that he was mentally challenged and on the course with his mother. One morning he was found dead down on the rocks near the ocean. MMY was distraught and told me that he thought this happened because of his karma and because of his wrong conduct. In the phone call he was just upset and begging me to return.

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From an old-time TM teacher:

I remember when she (Jennifer) showed up at Humboldt '72 with the intent of exposing MMY's sex escapades with her but then quickly left without having done so. I had long wondered where she went after that. She was pretty, bright, and clearly very capable, and I don't know how I would have reacted to details on MMY and sex then because she was someone who, to me at least, had credibility. When she suddenly left without confronting anyone we were able to sweep it under the rug.

I did not see her at Humboldt '72, but I have maintained a very clear memory since then of being told by one of my TTC friends when I arrived at Humboldt (Jennifer had been on our TTC) that Jennifer was there with the intent of confronting those on the course with details of sexual experiences with MMY. I recall that the person who told me surmised that she must have joined a fundamentalist Christian group, but that possibility seemed to me wholly outside of her character. I suppose I might so clearly remember being told about this both because the information was so incongruous with my image of MMY and because, as I indicated before, Jennifer was someone who I considered a pretty straight arrow. Like many (if not all) TTC courses, ours had many participants with loose screws (I recall one guy we called "Orangeman" because he ate only oranges), but no one who I knew would have so characterized Jennifer. I don't know how widespread the knowledge was at Humboldt of her intentions, and my recollection is that she left so quickly that we just settled into the rounding and the course that nothing came of it. (The big news coming out of that course was the increase of the course fee to $75 for students and $125 for adults, which we fought mightily at Jerry's urging until Jerry told us to stop.) Perhaps someone did confront and frighten her there, and that's why she left. When she never again showed up at any ATR I maintained some question in the back of my mind as to whether she might actually have left the movement because she had been sexually involved with MMY, but that didn't come up again until '78 or '79, when there was a sudden flurry of talk about her and others, some of which even included speculation that MMY might also have been, or at least tried to be, involved with April Clemons before she and (East Coast Regional Coordinator) Joe (Clarke) died in the plane crash with Ron M. Years ago I thought about contacting April's brother Tommy to learn whether he knew about any of this, but never did and have no idea where he is now.

You aren't the first to wonder whether MMY had some role in the plane crash, although that always has seemed a stretch. Your information that April assisted Jennifer and thus must have known about her and MMY is interesting. My recollection is that April had been with MMY in Fiuggi when she came back to the States and went with Joe to NC to view the land. I think she may actually have left at that time with some bad feelings -- at least I have some faint memory to that effect. Anyway, Joe and April had become an item by then, although perhaps not publicly. Charlie (Donahue), who was then Midwest Regional Coordinator, was supposed to meet Joe in Boston a week or two after the NC trip to go to the Cape for a weekend visit (I think Joe's family had a house on the Cape). That did not happen due to Joe's death. (I was with Charlie when Joe died -- needless to say, he could not have been more upset). In '78-'79 when the MMY & sex stuff arose with some force, Charlie recalled that Joe had called him shortly before the NC trip saying that he had learned something very troubling that he had to talk about with Charlie, and my recollection is that it was something that April had told Joe. Joe said it was very big, and they decided to put off discussing it until they met up on the Cape. Charlie theorized that perhaps Joe had been intending to tell him that he had learned from April that MMY had been sexually involved with women. At the time, the whole thing was troubling to many of us, including Charlie. I know that he has no interest in it at all now, however, having contacted him with the "skin boys" dialogue that has been reproduced on FFL. I think I can fairly say that he considers it irrelevant to MMY's importance as a spiritual master. As to whether the legalities would change after MMY dies, I would think whatever flimsy basis there might be for a lawsuit before he dies would die with him.

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From another old-timer:

Here is what I heard in the late 70's from a TM teacher who had originally worked at the Cambridge Center, then in Manhattan and was part of Charlie and Mark Lerner's etc. crowd. He told me that April called someone she was close to (probably Charlie?) at the Cambridge Center after she had arrived in N Carolina. She was with Joe and sounded hysterical. She said she had some very upsetting news about MMY and would not discuss any more on the phone. She said that as soon as she and Joe finished looking for land in N Carolina they would come to Boston and explain it all. I am not clear about this part but my memory was that she and Joe then got on the airplane and it crashed, I just don't know if there was a space of a few days between the phone call and the crash, or whether it happened immediately after the call.

When I heard this story, my hair literally stood on end. I asked the person if he thought the crash was some cosmic intention of MMY's and he said he did not know what to believe. However, this person did stay involved in the TMO for many years more.

Also, this conversation I had with him was in the context of my telling him about the rumors of sexual misconduct that I had heard via Chuckie Blitz. After I explained what I had heard, my friend said he had heard them too, and then proceeded to tell me the story of April.

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From Billy Clayton. (Maharishi's former secretary):

Maharishi was spending a lot of time with Jennifer; she spent a couple hours every morning in his room "reading him his mail," though sometimes there wasn't any mail or very little. Maharishi was buying clothes for her and suggesting how she should dress. Once, when a man who had been her boyfriend came to visit the course (a wealthy guy who came to give money), Maharishi was very grumpy, and after taking the gift, dismissed the man abruptly. A few nights later, with an urgent question for MMY, Billy and his fellow secretary knocked on Maharishi's door. They heard a noise, and since they were used to walking into M's room, they tried to open the door and go in but Maharishi jumped up and blocked it with his foot. They didn't claim to have seen the linga in the yoni but it was clear that Maharishi was not fully dressed. Apparently, he had just grabbed his dhoti and jumped up when he realized they were coming in. He told them to come back later. At the time neither of them really opened their eyes to what was going on and they didn't discuss it. In fact, they never discussed it.

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From Robert McCutchean: (Maharishi's former secretary)

Ned, you are spot-on in what you say about Maharishi and the TM movement. My faith in Maharishi's supposed perfection dissipated when he got sexually involved with Jennifer. Then when she left him and went to hide out in Switzerland with Bev and Fran, I observed him reduced to the status of a quivering adolescent.

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From Ned Wynn

Jennifer and that other chick who was in love with the rich [nationality deleted at the request of individual involved] guy, "Amy". MMY was gaga over her and f*cked her for a while as well. I got a blow-by-blow description of all this from "Amy" (and Jennifer). [Sentence deleted due to a challenge to a sexual act made by an individual involved.]

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From Rob McCutcheon

Ned, I think you need to write to John and give him the blow-by-blow descriptions you got from Jennifer and "Amy". How can he believe MMY is perfect when he claims to be a lifelong celibate yet screwed young girls? And even though you might explain these sordid facts away by claiming that he was enlivening their Shakti or some such nonsense, nothing can explain away his adolescent angst and frantic attempts to convince Jennifer to come back. The movement came to a halt while he spent hours on the phone like a heartbroken teenager.

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From Casey Coleman (Maharishi's former secretary)

My memory on the dates is not good at all. I couldn't even tell you the year. But at one point I had the job of being the doorkeeper to MMY. I let everyone in to see MMY and was with him as long as he was awake. I couldn't do this job for long because I needed more sleep than he did. I do not remember how many times (but something like four or five) the very last thing at night or early in the morning (2am) when everyone was gone and it was just me and him, he would tell me to go get Jennifer to do the mail. I would then go get her, she would be sleeping and would get up and come with me in her robe and underwear (I just happened to notice that she didn't have PJ'S under the robe) then the two of us would go into the room to do the mail. But after a few minutes MMY would tell me I could go rest, which I was very happy to do. The thought of them having sex never came into my mind. I have never talked to Jennifer about it. I have only heard about it second hand from Ned, Rob and Billy. But then thinking back on it I wonder why I couldn't have seen the obvious. But here is something also interesting. Right at this time MMY got all fired up that woman should not cook for him, that woman cooking for him or even being in his kitchen was having some negative effect on him. So I think he was trying to find the reason for the desires that were showing up in him. Brother Casey

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From: Robert McCutchean

Certainly the sexcapades were part of it, and the hypocrisy, and the obvious attraction to money and elevation of those who had it, and the increasing paranoia/demonology, and the increasing bad taste of the names for increasing nutty programs, and the inflated and delusional claims to saving the world -- but you know what finally got me -- his cruelty to those who served him. I remember Angelika von Killischorn -- she was the first western brahmacharini just like I was the first Brahmachari, Casey second, and Ned would have been third except he had more sense than Casey or I. And one day MMY was getting ready to go somewhere, and A von K brought him a glass of water. And he took a big drink and then spit it all over her as if it were sulfuric acid. And then he told someone else to go get him water (from the same jug), and they brought it and he drank it, and I watched A von K die inside. Then I watched her deteriorate into madness -- she was somehow unworthy to bring the master water -- he had to spit it all over her. She may still be in a mental institution. And something in me said that an enlightened man should be able to drink a glass of water brought to him by anyone -- provided it wasn't sulfuric acid. And in that moment the seamless garment of MMY's perfection began to unravel. Bro Robert

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From Ned Wynn

Rob and I also were doorkeepers. Yes, we saw her go in late at night. April also went in late at night, but she never got the opportunity to tell anyone anything before the plane went down. I never put together the fact that Jennifer went in at night with anything sexual. I was totally blind to it. Now that I put it all together, Jennifer and "Amy" both would wander out of MMY's rooms at around 4:30 or 5 am (on different courses, of course, "Amy" was after Jennifer). What the hell were they doing up all night? Reading to him, of course, and taking dictation.

I was on at least three courses in Mallorca. I was at the very first course there, which would have started in early 1971, January, in fact. The last course I was on was in the summer of 1972. I was there the whole time except when I was sent to other countries to teach. When Jennifer left, Rob has hit it squarely. MMY was like a pimply-faced soul-sick geek. The whole floor was somber. Everyone was silent, looking around, worried, anxious. Jennifer is gone. Where is Jennifer? Where is Jennifer? Somebody will get her? Yes? Not here? But where she is?

I had no idea where she was. When Maharishi made these plaintive whines about her he would look at each of us as if we could produce her out of a hat. Or as if we had possibly conspired to help her (I did not, but some others may have had the guts to help her. I never knew that she was going. She was afraid to tell me, she said later, because she didn't know how deeply I was into the whole thing, and that I might tell MMY she was leaving and he would try and prevent her). Remember, MMY tried to get some of his monks to bring Mia Farrow back. They followed her practically to Goa!

Since I knew of two women first-hand, three if you count Mia, (who said that she never f*cked him), they cannot be the only three he ever screwed. I remember in Humboldt there was a stunning South American woman holding some flowers and waiting for MMY to come out of his room. Someone whispered to me that she was rumored to be an ex-girlfriend of his. That means that he was into this shit way before we came on the scene. This lady hadn't been around for years. As far as I am concerned, if there was a rumor like that it had to be true. But in Humboldt I just brushed it off as a rumor.

Ned

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From Rob McCutcheon

During this period of time I also was the doorman. MMY ordered a number of expensive saris for Jennifer from India. He would have her dress up in them, and have her put on make up and come to his room late at night. Except that I did not get sent to bed. I had to wait outside the door until Jennifer left. She would appear rumpled and smeared. I also watched her mental state deteriorate. Clearly something bad was going on. Finally she snapped, and fled to Switzerland to hid out with Bev and Fran. When MMY found out she had left, he was beside himself. He would spend hours on the phone trying to coax her back. As I mentioned earlier, I also was the skin carrier in India. A similar scenario to the one Casey described with Jennifer took place with "Amy". When everyone had gone to bed, I would go get "Amy" so that she could "read poetry" to MMY. He would also have her dress up in fancy saris and paint her face. I was in a very strange state of mind about this. Ashok, the Indian boy with whom I was close, became contemptuous about MMY, but I somehow couldn't let the facts into my conscious mind. But I do remember how Ashok and I used to joke about the Poetry Girl in a ribald way that implied that more than poetry was being read. I never talked with "Amy" about this, but when I came to know what was going on with Jennifer I knew the same thing must have been true with "Amy", which Jennifer confirmed. I hope these sordid facts help you get some leverage on your present situation. Bro Robert

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From Rob McCutcheon

"Amy" was in India the second course I was on. I was then the skin carrier, with a young Indian guy named Ashok. Every night after business was done, MMY would have Ashok and me go get "Amy" so she could "read him poetry" before bed. Ashok and I called her the poetry girl. Then, I was so naive that I tried to block out the obvious -- but when things came down with Jennifer, I knew the same had gone on with "Amy", but I never talked with her about it. I am glad to know you did, cuz it confirms what my intuition told me.

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From Ned Wynn

One of the things that amazed me was the distaste with which Jennifer referred to her sex with MMY. She thought it was terrible, he was a shitty lover (of course) and she hated it but did it because well, she was Tom with tits, why else? As for "Amy", she was actually - she told me - in love with MMY. Actually infatuated love with him so she over-looked his premature ejaculations and his unwillingness to eat her maw maw. But he loved them [sexual act deleted, challenged by an individual involved] pretty damn much. He got worried she was too clingy (or he had another ho on the line waiting) so he arranged for the rich [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] guy to take her off his hands even though the [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] was a married man with kids. [Individual involved challenges the veracity of this description of the incident] MMY is one of the most immoral f*ckers I've ever known. He misuses his power in shockingly banal ways, kind of like an aging CEO with his secretaries. The guy has absolutely no style, no class. He's the classic backward Dravidian reactionary, sexually repressed, greedy, hypocritical, and a bald-faced liar.

Ned "Hey, 'Amy', [specific sexual practice deleted, challenged by individual involved]" Wynn

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From Ned Wynn

This is the bare bones of what I know, personally, from both Jennifer and "Amy". This email was originally written to Rob so it may be a bit raw and flippant for you. But we (Rob, Casey, and I) are way past being amazed at this. I have known this for thirty years now. These girls told me (and Jane Goe, my former wife) these stories personally. Jennifer called us up and made it a point to come to our house and tell us this story. She was angry about it. She felt that she had been taken advantage of by MMY because of his power and the aura he had. Once the blinders were off she felt abused and cheated, as if she had been f*cked while in a stupor. "Amy"spent a week in our house. It was intimate. I have absolutely no reason to doubt them, though, when I was in your shoes, I doubted Mia Farrow who told me about MMY's overt sexual passes at her. I thought she was mistaken. I no longer believe that this stuff is untrue.

These things also happened, I believe (but have no first-hand knowledge) with April. And a South American woman who was around before we were. There are obviously a number of girls that he screwed that we know nothing about, and it went on for at least twenty years. Someone besides me has got to know this. Jerry, for one. the Australian girls, Bev and Fran. Devindra knew. Billy had to know.

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From Ned Wynn

All the conversations with "Amy" (who stayed with Jane and me for a week in Santa Monica) and Jennifer (who lived in Santa Monica when she was first married, to a nice guy named Tim whom she later divorced) took place in our apartment on 19th Street in Santa Monica sometime in the early 70's. The girls were very explicit, there was no coy innuendo. They were forthright and anxious to tell it as it was definitely an unburdening to the only two people they apparently thought would give them a fair hearing and not be dismissive, etc. They did not sound like women who were making anything up or embellishing on a look they got or something. There was no doubting any of the substance of what they told me. These girls were not rumor-mongering or trying to self-aggrandize. they both had completely different points-of-view on Maharishi as I said in a previous email: Jennifer despised him, "Amy" loved him. They both f*cked him. I made sure to ask, did they actually have complete sex, they said yes, though it was less than thrilling to Jennifer.

Ned

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The following is the full text of conversations between Rob McCutchean, Ned Wynn, and Casey Coleman, former personal secretaries of MMY, parts of which were excerpted above:

Thursday, August 29, 2002 6:27 AM
To: "Ned Wynn"
From: "Robert McCutchean"
Subject: Re: Hey

Ned, you are spot-on in what you say about Maharishi and the TM movement. My faith in Maharishi's supposed perfection dissipated when he got sexually involved with Jennifer. Then when she left him and went to hide out in Switzerland with Bev and Fran, I observed him reduced to the status of a quivering adolescent. Then followed a movement ever more dedicated to separating people according to how much money could be bilked from them. This reached its apogee with the recent one-month course that cost a cool million dollars. Poor people, no matter how pure and motivated, need not apply. MMY's personal failures and ever increasing avariciousness are now accompanied by political rants from the medieval ages. However, I shall always be grateful for learning to meditate, and for the opportunity to meet the wonderful seekers I did through the TM movement. Finally, I don't agree the earth was not made to house perfect men. It's just tough to be perfect in our imperfect (but evolving) world. Dr. Robert

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Thursday, August 29, 2002 7:10 AM
From: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: Hey

Jennifer and that other chick who was in love with the rich [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] guy, "Amy". MMY was gaga over her and f*cked her for a while as well. I got a blow-by-blow description of all this from "Amy" (and Jennifer).

I think the earth was made to house people who seek to perfect themselves (as well as to degrade themselves) but that when a person is as close as he can get, he leaves the earth. Of course, I am not a believer in the idea of bodhisattva, so I do not look for reincarnated holy men who may be perfect. I think the earth is a place to work it out and then hightail it to higher places.

You're right about John. He is trying desperately to reconcile two completely opposing systems in his own head. One is the system of madness ("King" Nader Raam, million-dollar courses on videotape, mad spewings that sound like they came from the anti-globalist Know-Nothings, etc. [which might be closer to cunning than madness, like much of fraud is]), the other of sanity (holiness). Where is the line? Is it OK for MMY to restrict the lessons of the spirit to the wealthy? Is this the lesson of Christ or Buddha? Or are the latter, as MMY has always implied, really some rungs down from himself?

Does this even make sense in the Darwinian concept of karma, which MMY cites when he dismisses the suffering of the world as nothing more than the soul in ignorance? The wealthy, in his view, are obviously more evolved, the poor, less. This is antique Indian caste thinking. Bob Gold told me a long time ago that as far as he was concerned, MMY was nothing more than the reflection of his culture, and an exemplar of all that is rigid and immovably hierarchical about India.

The meditation came along in a time in my life when I really needed it. For that I am truly thankful to MMY. But I paid my debt to him and them some by working for nothing for two years (was it three?). One does not owe the guru one's entire life. The meditation does not belong to the guru, much though he might have made it more accessible to more people (this was his greatest achievement whereas the restriction of the "advanced" or esoteric to the few is one of his greatest sins). The meditation belongs to the Spirit and it is men who need and use it. You thank your guru and you get on your way. If you see Buddha in the road, etc. John and the others who remain there are, as Rob says, frightened. They have allowed the guru to define not only their spiritual lives but also their physical, mental, and emotional lives as well.

Actually living in a compound as they do they reminds me of all the failed utopian cults that America was dotted with throughout the 19th Century. These experiments are always doomed to fail because they eventually become as rigid and unyielding to common sense as the most reactionary systems, which they were rebelling against in the first place. Hence all the bureaucratic idiocy that accompanies living in the Global Whatnot. John thinks that if he leaves the Global Whatnot he will never gain "enlightenment." This was the great fear of Brahmachari Devindra when I was with him in Majorca. Finally the man had the good sense to get out, but he could never completely separate himself from the guru. I really believe that one of the tests of spirituality is, in fact, the separation, total and complete, of the disciple from the teacher. Otherwise the teaching is a failure.

Ned

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Thu, 29 Aug 2002 14:08:22 -0700
Subject: Re: Fw: Hey Ned and Rob,

It would seem that if transcending time and space is a requirement for enlightenment then leaving the guru would be too!

Don Juan told Carlos that he owed him nothing. He said, " I gave you my attention and you gave me yours, it was a perfect trade."

Or some such thing.

Brother Casey

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Friday, August 30, 2002 7:28 AM
From: Rob McCutcheon"
Subject: Re: Fw: Hey

Ned, I think you need to write to John and give him the blow-by-blow descriptions you got from Jennifer and "Amy". We need to help this guy get his psychic shit together and extricate himself from the madness he cannot seem to escape. How can he believe MMY is perfect when he claims to be a lifelong celibate yet screwed young girls? And even though you might explain these sordid facts away by claiming that he was enlivening their Shakti or some such nonsense, nothing can explain away his adolescent angst and frantic attempts to convince Jennifer to come back. The movement came to a halt while he spent hours on the phone like a heartbroken teenager. But it all just goes to prove what the ancient Tantra Shastras say: Ain't nothing put a whuppin' on a man, Like the power of a pussy can.

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 09:01:21 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"
To: Rob
Subject: Re: Hey Ned and Rob,

I used to go get Jennifer the last thing at night so she could help MMY with the mail. She would be wearing a robe with just her underwear under it. I did not think anything of it. The ideal of the Bodhisattva is the same as Jesus' commend---love your neighbor. Brother Casey

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 09:44:54 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"
To: John Doe
Subject: E-mail and its power

John, Isn't e-mail incredible! Information moves very fast! As you have read Ned, Rob and I have been talking about you. We are all in the same boat: the boat on the way to enlightenment and as such we are in the dark as to exactly what the truth is. All of our paths will change before the goal is reached. You have to step out of the boat when you across the river! Thanks for continuing to send me great e-mails. Are you doing ok with George, Ned, Rob and I picking on you? I know you are!

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 10:09:18 -0400
From: Rob McCutcheon,
To: Ned Wynn CC: brothercasey@hotmail.com
Subject: Re: Hey

Ned, You are so fun to read. I didn't know you knew "Amy". She was in India the second course I was on. I was then the skin carrier, with a young Indian guy named Ashok. Every night after business was done, MMY would have Ashok and me go get "Amy" so she could "read him poetry" before bed. Ashok and I called her the poetry girl. Then I was so naive that I tried to block out the obvious -- but when things came down with Jennifer, I knew the same had gone on with "Amy", but I never talked with her about it. I am glad to know you did, cuz it confirms what my intuition told me. I know your Protestant deism does not accept the idea of the Bodhisattva, but I can't escape the conviction that if a person were realized, that would the proper course of action for them to take. Take care brother. Dr. Robert

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 14:25:10 -0500
From: "George Burns"
To: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: da Babes Date:

One thing I thought of is this. A few years ago when John first mentioned the girls (after reading Ned's book), I just didn't believe it. Now, I could believe it, but it doesn't seem to make much difference to me (not nearly as much difference as him charging so much for TM). I don't think a little fooling around is as much of a sin as hiding this knowledge from the world. Another thing that came to my mind was this. A monk may have maximum power up in the mountains being 'singular'. But for achieving things in the material world, maybe it takes both the male and female energies working together to accomplish things. He may have had a close personal friendship with these girls (could have even been sexual if that's what it took), so that he could generate the type of energy necessary to create the effect needed to put things into motion in the material world. Sounds reasonable to me. Just a thought.

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Friday, August 30, 2002 2:46 PM
From: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: Fw: Hey

One of the things that amazed me was the distaste with which Jennifer referred to her sex with MMY. She thought it was terrible, he was a shitty lover (of course) and she hated it but did it because well, she was Tom with tits, why else? As for "Amy", she was actually - she told me - in love with MMY. Actually infatuated love with him so she over-looked his premature ejaculations and his unwillingness to eat her maw maw. But he loved them [sexual act deleted due to a challenge to a made by an individual involved] pretty damn much. He got worried she was too clingy (or he had another ho on the line waiting) so he arranged for the rich [nationality deletedat the request of an individual involved] guy to take her off his hands even though the [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] was a married man with kids. MMY is one of the most immoral f*ckers I've ever known. He misuses his power in shockingly banal ways, kind of like an aging CEO with his secretaries. The guy has absolutely no style, no class. He's the classic backward Dravidian reactionary, sexually repressed, greedy, hypocritical, and a bald-faced liar.

Ned "Hey, "Amy", [specific sexual practice deleted, challenged by person involved]" Wynn

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Friday, August 30, 2002 3:11 PM
From: John Doe
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power

You haven't picked on me very much, and I wouldn't consider talking about any point a personal attack. I would appreciate getting some more details from Ned so I know these things really happened. It is mind blowing. I just got home. Later, John

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 18:09:21 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: Fwd: Re: Fw: Hey

John, Even though I am forwarding this to you I do want to say I think Ned is a little more negative than need be. "Amy" was very cute and any man would have had a hard time saying no to her if she was coming on to him. I do not think that MMY having sex says much about him at all except that he is human. I am not going to be the first person to throw the stone. As we learned from our last president all men will lie about sex and they can still be great and good men in spite on it.

Brother Casey PS. The [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] guy was very happy to take her back to [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] and set her in her own apt. as his mistress.

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 18:16:24 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
To: "John Doe" CC: "Robert McCutchean" ,"Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power

John,

This is the bare bones of what I know, personally, from both Jennifer and "Amy". This email was originally written to Rob so it may be a bit raw and flippant for you. But we (Rob, Casey, and I) are way past being amazed at this. I have known this for thirty years now. These girls told me (and Jane Goe, my former wife) these stories personally. Jennifer called us up and made it a point to come to our house and tell us this story. She was angry about it. She felt that she had been taken advantage of by MMY because of his power and the aura he had. Once the blinders were off she felt abused and cheated, as if she had been f*cked while in a stupor. "Amy"spent a week in our house. It was intimate. I have absolutely no reason to doubt them, though, when I was in your shoes, I doubted Mia Farrow who told me about MMY's overt sexual passes at her. I thought she was mistaken. I no longer believe that this stuff is untrue.

These things also happened, I believe (but have no first-hand knowledge) with April. And a South American woman who was around before we were. There are obviously a number of girls that he screwed that we know nothing about, and it went on for at least twenty years. Someone besides me has got to know this. Jerry, for one. The Australian girls, Bev and Fran. Devindra knew. Billy had to know.

I did not publish this in my book out of deference to Maharishi, and I actually talked Jennifer out of taking it to a magazine at the time (early 70's). I would not do so now. There is absolutely no point in hanging onto an image of someone when it is this clear the image is false. It does not forward one's own trek toward enlightenment. MMY has always laughed this stuff off and made it seem like people are just trying to bring him down, etc. Or, as Rob says, he might claim it was the excitement of Shakti. Well, it's ALWAYS the excitement of Shakti, right? So what is the excuse? A dick is a dick, a pussy is a pussy, and ever the twain shall meet and splash around.

Casey is too kind to Maharishi. He is wrong. When a person in Maharishi's position, with status, personal power, and pretensions to enlightenment, uses his female disciples in this way it is scandalous and wrong. And when he lays a fake trip on his male disciples about celibacy and all that rot, it is wrong.

Ned

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Friday, August 30, 2002 6:24 PM
From: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: da Babes

Paul, I would also think there is something to that. He wanted to be successful in the world and all the woman were coming on to him, it had to be hard on him. I also agree on the sex vs. money, his quest for name and fame and money are worse than any sexual indiscretions. And they were short term and temporary. Brother Casey

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 18:50:03 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power

Ned, Ned you can not stop trying to be entertaining and funny. I thought my time of celibacy then and now is and was very useful. I recommend it. Next life time I am going to be a monk right off! Unless "Amy" comes on to me. I would have a hard time saying no. It had to be unbelievably hard in the 60's to be celibate. And they were all coming on to him!! Don't we still love Bill Clinton? He was entertaining, Ned! And so was and is MMY! Brother Casey

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Fri, 30 Aug 2002 19:21:01 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
To: "Casey Coleman" CC: "Robert McCutchean"
Subject: Re: da Babes

Paul, you are falling back into the rhythm that MMY wants you to. There is no point in thinking it is some kind of Vedic thing, either. Maharishi f*cked girls because he was horny. He used them. It was not equal, it was not enlivening to the women's spirits, whatever. Don't try and excuse this guy on these actions. He is a hypocrite. He tells us he is Brahmachari and he is not. He urges us to be celibate then he f*cks our chicks. Come on, man. If he had never pretended to be a Brahmachari then OK. In that case, he never said he wasn't f*cking them. But I am sure he used the ruse on them that his spiritual juice would lead them more quickly to enlightenment, or at least he let them think that it might. He was not forthright. Remember, this is a man in his fifties at the time, an adult. He was not a twenty-year old kid. He's got karma to pay, pure and simple.

It matters because as a disciple, I, and Rob and Casey, all bought his line and he used everyone up. The women were, of course, old enough to know better. But he had extraordinary power and he misused it. It is every bit as bad as the money, because it is about trust. You must absolutely be able to trust your guru. If he tells you flat out that he is celibate, then he better be celibate. If he slips, he has to cop to it and rethink who he is. When Maharishi was in Spain, I heard him say that many of the holy men in India used to say, "If Maharishi leaves India and goes out into the world, he is lost." Then Maharishi tossed his head back and laughed. The message was that those old Indian guys were fools, that MMY could not be corrupted by the "world." Well, they must have known him better than he did himself, because he is corrupt and he was corrupt then. That does not mean that he did not bring a valuable tool to us in the form of TM, but it does mean that for any true advancement in life, it is best to shake the dust of his movement, and his person, off your sandals and move on.

Ned

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Saturday, August 31, 2002 8:20 AM
To: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: Fw: Hey

Ned, I can't but agree with your description of MMY. I am very interested to know when you talked with Jennifer and "Amy". Were we still all in Europe or did you talk with them later after we were stateside? Dr. Robert

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Saturday, August 31, 2002 8:41 AM
To: "Ned Wynn" Cc: "Casey Coleman" ; "Robert McCutchean"
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power

Casey, Ned is absolutely right. Bill Clinton never claimed to be perfect -- MMY did. And in Jennifer's case, it really f*cked up her mind, she was badly hurt and damaged. And I do not believe that she came on to MMY. She was taken advantage of in a destructive and hurtful way, and that is not ok. Dr. Robert

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Sat, 31 Aug 2002 10:40:13 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re another thing to consider :

Rob, Casey, John,

Remember something else: MMY claimed to hold Guru Dev in the highest esteem. He literally worshiped the guy. And remember also that he took vows of celibacy to this very guru and then broke them. One of the reasons I did not take the vows of celibacy with MMY in Majorca (I went all the way into the room with him where the Puja was to be done and told him I could not do it - Rob was outside the door and he was the first one I told about it when I came out) was because I knew instinctively I would not be able to keep them and I did not want to lie to Maharishi. Can you imagine the cataclysmic aftershock to a real, believing Hindu who lied and betrayed not only his disciples but his guru? WAKE UP!

When Paul says that the money was worse he is ignoring the above transgression of the guru/disciple/guru relationship and the sanctity of that bond. Either you are a truly religious man or you are not. Maharishi is not. So no one owes him one moment of loyalty from that point of view at least.

Ned

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Sat, 31 Aug 2002 11:34:39 -0400
To: Ned Wynn

Subject: Re: E-mail and its power Ned, You are absolutely right. It is the misuse of power and the hypocrisy that is unforgivable that rankles. Dr. Robert

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Sat, 31 Aug 2002 17:57:51 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: Re another thing to consider

Ned, Rob and John, Hurting another person with sex is sin or functioning under the influence of ignorance or a demon----no doubt about it! MMY was not perfect. And the last line of Ned's e-mail where he says we owe MMY no loyalty, I would comment on by quoting Emmet Fox.

"Remember that the Truth of Being concerns Itself with the infinite, the impersonal Principle of Life; and does not lend itself to the exploitation of particular organizations. You do not owe an a John of loyalty to anyone or anything in the universe except your own Indwelling Christ, your own spiritual integrity." Brother Casey

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Sat, 31 Aug 2002 10:33:18 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: Fw: Hey

All the conversations with "Amy" (who stayed with Jane and me for a week in Santa Monica) and Jennifer (who lived in Santa Monica when she was first married, to a nice guy named Tim whom she later divorced) took place in our apartment on 19th Street in Santa Monica sometime in the early 70's. The girls were very explicit, there was no coy innuendo. They were forthright and anxious to tell it as it was definitely an unburdening to the only two people they apparently thought would give them a fair hearing and not be dismissive, etc. They did not sound like women who were making anything up or embellishing on a look they got or something. There was no doubting any of the substance of what they told me. These girls were not rumor-mongering or trying to self-aggrandize. they both had completely different points-of-view on Maharishi as I said in a previous email: Jennifer despised him, "Amy" loved him. They both f*cked him. I made sure to ask, did they actually have complete sex, they said yes, though it was less than thrilling to Jennifer.

Ned

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Saturday, August 31, 2002 6:09 PM
From: "Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power

Rob,

Yes! it is an misuse of power and a hypocrisy, but unforgivable???????? Do you really mean that!! I doubt it. But if so, I would carefully reconsider your position in the light of the law of karma that says we are forgiven as we forgive.

Brother Casey

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Sat, 31 Aug 2002 20:50:43 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: E-mail and its power Casey,

I agree, basically, with the thrust of Rob's message. Maharishi broke the sacred trust, the rule that bonds guru and disciple. Perhaps this was intentional (to make us leave), but either way, if it was intentional then the result is the same: break away, if not, break away. In the teleological sense, breaking away is required. Forgiveness, I think, is the choice of the individual, it is not a given. I don't feel the need to forgive MMY because I harbor no grudge against him. In a sense, I believe MMY's transgressions are actually against the Spirit, not against me or you. The disciples are the Spirit because they approach the guru in innocence and trust, just as the Spirit makes itself available to all who seek it, without partisanship. Rich, poor, old, young, male, female, black, white, the Spirit is open to all who seek it. The disciples, in the Hindu tradition, make themselves available to the guru to refine them and make them whole (holy). The guru welcomes the disciple and cares for him because the disciple brings the guru the greatest of gifts, love and obedience. By accepting the disciple the guru brings himself into contact with the Spirit. It is of tremendous spiritual import to the guru to have disciples. They are not petitioners, they are partners in the Spirit (as Christ said to his disciples, "I call you friends.") Christ even washed his disciples' feet. The guru is the Servant. He must be truly humble. If he lies and cheats, then he is violating an essential spiritual law. If he says he is Brahmachari and he is not, he transgresses a sacred boundary.

Maharishi needs to make amends. He needs to take to heart the lesson of submission, of surrender. Amendment of life when we have sinned against the Spirit is the greatest action we can take because it affirms our willingness to bow to the Spirit and to do the will of God. Maharishi never makes amends. He is arrogant and willful. I think it is completely reasonable for the disciple, disappointed in the guru's sinfulness, to be angry with him. And it is essential that the disciple, when he encounters a willfully disobedient guru, to leave that guru. If, later in life, the disciple comes to the conclusion that the guru was misguided (if, as you say, infested with a demon, or, as I think, compounded in his sin by ego and self-love), then the disciple may forgive the guru. But MMY continues in his sins, he wallows in his transgressions, and thus he has lost the love and care of the holy men in his own country. They know who he is. They warned him. But he thought he was above the rest. This is a problem that MMY will have to solve. So far I see no indication of anything in that direction. He remains grandiose, dictatorial, and unrepentant. When I speak of repentance I know that Rob will think, "Protestant Deist." But repentance is not foreign to Hinduism or Buddhism. It merely means a return to our right relationship with God, a relationship of complete surrender on our part and total Love on God's. Maharishi has no humility, and I think in the end that is his downfall. Sex is just a trap that is set to catch the arrogant and willful. Money, ditto. In and of themselves they are nothing. But, taken in the context we're exploring, they are indications of the unsuitability of Maharishi to be anyone's guru.

Ned

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Sun, 1 Sep 2002 10:17:28 -0400
From: "Casey Coleman"
To: Ned Wynn

Ned, I am sorry you talked her out of it, but I understand your impulse to protect her. Unfortunately, her silence enabled MMY to continue his nutty movement. In other movements where the guru's malfeasances did come out, there was hell to pay. I just read a book on the fall of Richard Baker, the head of the Zen temple in San Francisco. His followers chucked him out. In other cases, devotees left in droves when the truth came out about the misbehavior of their supposed perfect gurus. I myself planned to write a book about the subject. I even had an agent in New York who was sure the book would sell. My tentative title was "Robes of Silk, Feet Of Clay." I had the chapters all blocked out. But then I got a letter from Vernon Katz who, evidently at MMY's prompting, told me it was my responsibility as a former disciple to continue to respect the guru. I don't know why, but I found myself persuaded by Vernon, and I just couldn't go through with it, loving Vernon as I did. So it is to my discredit too. Robert

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Thu, 05 Sep 2002 08:57:09 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"

My memory on the dates is not good at all. I couldn't even tell you the year. But at one point I had the job of being the door keeper to MMY. I let everyone in to see MMY and was with him as long as he was awake. I couldn't do this job for long because I needed more sleep than he did. I do not remember how many times (but something like four or five) the very last thing at night or early in the morning (2am) when everyone was gone and it was just me and him, he would tell me to go get Jennifer to do the mail. I would then go get her, she would be sleeping and would get up and come with me in her robe and underwear (I just happened to notice that she didn't have PJ'S under the robe) then the two of us would go into the room to do the mail. But after a few minutes MMY would tell me I could go rest, which I was very happy to do. The thought of them having sex never came into my mind. I have never talked to Jennifer about it. I have only heard about it second hand from Ned, Rob and Billy. But then thinking back on it I wonder why I couldn't have seen the obvious. But here is something also interesting. Right at this time MMY got all fired up that woman should not cook for him, that woman cooking for him or even being in his kitchen was having some negative effect on him. He started having John P cook for him. And John was told to keep all people out of the kitchen. I know this because I used to go and cook some food for myself in his kitchen and John found out about it and threatened me with a rolling pin! So I think he was trying to find the reason for the desires that were showing up in him. I hope this is helpful. Brother Casey

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Thu, 5 Sep 2002 09:11:22 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
To: "Casey Coleman" Gents,

Fascinating about MMY's search for reasons. What I wanted to say was that MMY was looking for some reason why he was horny, and settle on the fact that women were cooking for him. How absurd. Of course having John Pisculic do the cooking would put a crimp in anyone's sex life, but Maharishi refused to take responsibility for any of the things he did. Like f*cking his disciples. He did it because he was horny. Like the rest of us. Woman cook, man cook, the fact is that we are endowed with hormones and so are women and so we feel these things. Acting on them is entirely beyond the scope of who fries your chapattis. I am a married man. I love my wife. I would not cheat on her. But I still feel sexual desire for other women. It's the acting on the hormonal information that is at the root of MMY's trouble. And that is an element of self-control. His looking for some reason outside himself to blame is pure MMY. It's the whole "influence of karma" game. We know right from wrong. If we've done wrong we should try and alter our behavior instead of looking for mystical reasons and "sexual vibrations" coming from the kitchen.

Ned

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Thu, 05 Sep 2002 10:13:38 -0500

Dear John,

On jury duty, I'd heard before maybe on TV something about the saying in the law that there's nothing like cross i.e. cross-examination.

The opportunity to subject claims to scrutiny.

For me, I've received some emails about some claims from your friends according to your mutual friends. For all I know some hacker could be posing as you on the internet.

Or there may be a miscommunication or the perception of the two women may be clouded.

I know you're convinced.

But I've seen 12 ANGRY MEN many times and I majored in philosophy under a Methodist minister who had a PhD from Columbia U and had been the national debating champ at Emory and has the longest transcript of any witness (reluctant) ever to appear before the notorious HUAC (in July 1953 for 3 days.)

He emphasized question raising.

Clarification questions: what do you mean by this?

And critical questions: how can you say this here when you say that there or how can you say this is red when this established authority says it's blue.

It's all Nyaya. Rules of engagement. Defining terms.

There is nothing like cross.

Sometimes people lie under oath, break down on the stand, confess that their confessions were coerced, turn out to be multiple personalities.

Did you see Verdict with Paul Newman? Did you see Presumed Innocent with Harrison Ford.

I don't know these 2 women or the 3 guys from Adam even though maybe we've been on courses and the three guys ring a bell.

I recall a dark haired petite gal named "Amy", sort of a disciple type, but I don't recall her last name.

There is nothing like cross.

Children create stories of being molested. Women create stories of being raped. Gay lovers play head trips with each other.

My professor was smeared in college by a Presbyterian minister in Louisville who sent hate mail to students, faculty, alumni and parents resulting in an all campus meeting presided over by the then college president. Present were Enloe, Mary Drew, me, the entire campus, and Pierce Lively, an alum and person high in the judiciary system.

Brooks Landson, a student and now Chairman of the English Dept at U of Iowa in Iowa City asked the guy during Q & A about the commie literature he was waving. It gradually emerged that it was Quaker literature.

Those of present at that meeting will never forget that night and consider it one of the most memorable moments in our entire education.

Everyone spoke who wanted to. Anyone could ask the professor anything. I was his devoted student and friend and I asked right off, "Are you a Communist?" Not that it mattered.

There is nothing like cross.

And the presumption of innocence.

I have been the victim of many false stories in the movement which when I heard them, those I was lucky enough to hear, I had to laugh.

In these Ashcroft times, has M been informed of the charges, been given an opportunity to respond, been subjected to cross-examination? M says it's good to clear the air.

Ok, there is intuition and there are, for some, credible witnesses but for me I withhold judgment pending more information and even then I withhold judgment pending exploration of possible explanations.

Thank you for sharing all this with me but the effect, if not the intent of some accusers, is to discredit someone whose credibility is otherwise impeccable.

Remember when M said that after about 2 years of being around Guru Dev he wasn't making any mistakes, he'd locked in on the master's vibe.

Moreover, I hear no plausible explanation for this behavior.

Best,

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Thursday, September 05, 2002 10:47 AM

Dear Ned, If Casey is talking about the La Antilla courses then the time period is the first 6 months of 1971, right?? I wonder what date those courses ended and when Jennifer fled to Switzerland?? Were you and Rob also Door Keepers and did you also escort or see Jennifer go into MMY's room late at night?? John

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The 1972 - 1973 TTC's LaAntilla: October '72 to May '73. Punta Umbria: January '73 to May '73. Seelisberg: March '73 to May '73.

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Thu, 5 Sep 2002 11:18:47 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn"
To: "John Doe" CC: "Robert McCutchean" ,"Casey Coleman"

John,

Rob and I also were door keepers. Yes, we saw her go in late at night. April also went in late at night, but she never got the opportunity to tell anyone anything before the plane went down. I never put together the fact that Jennifer went in at night with anything sexual. I was totally blind to it. Now that I put it all together, Jennifer and "Amy" both would wander out of MMY's rooms at around 4:30 or 5 am (on different courses, of course, "Amy" was after Jennifer). What the hell were they doing up all night? Reading to him, of course, and taking dictation.

I was on at least three courses in Mallorca. I was at the very first course there, which would have started in early 1971, January, in fact. The last course I was on was in the summer of 1972. I was there the whole time except when I was sent to other countries to teach. When Jennifer left, Rob has hit it squarely. MMY was like a pimply-faced soul-sick geek. The whole floor was somber. Everyone was silent, looking around, worried, anxious. Jennifer is gone. Where is Jennifer? Where is Jennifer? Somebody will get her? Yes? Not here? But where she is?

I had no idea where she is. When Maharishi made these plaintive whines about her he would look at each of us as if we could produce her out of a hat. Or as if we had possibly conspired to help her (I did not, but some others may have had the guts to help her. I never knew that she was going. She was afraid to tell me, she said later, because she didn't know how deeply I was into the whole thing, and that I might tell MMY she was leaving and he would try and prevent her). Remember, MMY tried to get some of his monks to bring Mia Farrow back. They followed her practically to Goa!

Since I knew of two women first-hand, three if you count Mia, who said that she never f*cked him, they cannot be the only three he ever screwed. I remember in Humboldt there was a stunning South American woman holding some flowers and waiting for MMY to come out of his room. Someone whispered to me that she was rumored to be an ex-girlfriend of his. That means that he was into this shit way before we came on the scene. This lady hadn't been around for years. As far as I am concerned, if there was a rumor like that it had to be true. But in Humboldt I just brushed it off as a rumor.

Ned

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Thu, 5 Sep 2002 11:28:06 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn" John,

Most of those courses were three months long. If the dates are right then Jennifer fled to Switzerland in the Spring, like in March or April of 1971. I did not arrive back in the U.S. until July-August of 1972, and Jennifer did not talk to Jane and me until 1973 when we all lived in Santa Monica. Same with "Amy". I would say that "Amy" showed up sometime after she returned from [country deleted at the request of an individual involved] where she was with her rich, married [nationality deleted at the request of an individual involved] guy. That could have been 1973 or 1974. MMY had gotten rid of her. I have no idea who the next girl was. I believe that if anyone is still in contact with Billy, that he would know. I would be curious to know what Billy thinks of all this.

Ned

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Thu, 05 Sep 2002 16:52:18 -0700
From: "Casey Coleman"

Ned, Billy has his own stories to tell, he is much, much more negative than any of us. He was there longer and it cost him more money! And to you John I forgot to say that I heard about MMY's sexual adventures from Jane also. And she was the most convincing one of them all! Brother Casey

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Thu, 05 Sep 2002 20:41:13 -0500
Subject: Fwd: emails
From: "Ned Wynn"

Gents,

Obviously these emails are getting around. I didn't think, when I started yapping about all of this, what the ramifications might be, but the Internet is amazing. I hope that this info will help people to see clearly what they are into and make their decisions coolly, with eyes open. I am not at all unhappy with this, but I did not initially intend it. I have long since ceased to worry about how I am thought of in the TM movement. My book was published in 1989, so the little tidbit has been there for thirteen years. I am sure that I am on the hit list and have been for a long time. I consider it a badge of honor.

It has only been over the past five years or so, since Casey started sending me the garish magazines and all, that I saw how completely over-the-top this whole thing has gotten. Now with this King Nader character, it has become comedy, but the tragedy of people wasting their energy, their creativity, and their health in the service of MMY's grandiose visions is always present. John's view as a rational, if disturbed, insider is invaluable.

As it says in the King James (an actual King, BTW), "...And immediately there fell from his eyes as it had been scales: and he received sight forthwith, and arose." Acts 9:18

Ned

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Friday, September 06, 2002 6:50 AM
To: "Ned Wynn"
Subject: Re: Mo' frum da Lawd

Casey, You have brought up something important with the kitchen thing. If a man has extinguished ignorance and is living the bliss of Brahman, how can who cooked his food give him a hard on? This story demonstrates MMY's inability to take responsibility for his own shit, and to blame it on innocuous causes -- causes he should be above if he were really who he represents himself to be. Bro Robert

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Fri, 6 Sep 2002 09:30:12 -0400
From Rob McCutcheon
To: Casey Coleman

During this period of time I also was the door man. MMY ordered a number of expensive saris for Jennifer from India. He would have her dress up in them, and have her put on make up and come to his room late at night. Except that I did not get sent to bed. I had to wait outside the door until Jennifer left. She would appear rumpled and smeared. I also watched her mental state deteriorate. Clearly something bad was going on. Finally she snapped, and fled to Switzerland to hid out with Bev and Fran. When MMY found out she had left, he was beside himself. He would spend hours on the phone trying to coax her back. As I mentioned earlier, I also was the skin carrier in India. A similar scenario to the one Casey described with Jennifer took place with "Amy". When everyone had gone to bed, I would go get "Amy" so that she could "read poetry" to MMY. He would also have her dress up in fancy saris and paint her face. I was in a very strange state of mind about this. Ashok, the Indian boy with whom I was close, became contemptuous about MMY, but I somehow couldn't let the facts into my conscious mind. But I do remember how Ashok and I used to joke about the Poetry Girl in a ribald way that implied that more than poetry was being read. I never talked with "Amy" about this, but when I came to know what was going on with Jennifer I knew the same thing must have been true with "Amy", which Jennifer confirmed. I hope these sordid facts help you get some leverage on your present situation. Bro Robert

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Fri, 6 Sep 2002 09:46:31 -0400
Subject: Re: emails

Ned, Like you, my only connection with all of this has been through Casey. He would send me the movement mags occasionally and it just turned my stomach. But since we have gotten into all of this, I have been feeling badly for all of the people who have given their lives to this and are now materially and psychically harmed as a result. I hope your powerful emails get wide distribution in Oz.

Bro Robert

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Fri, 6 Sep 2002 16:08:30 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn" CC: "John Doe" ,"Casey Coleman"
Subject: Re: Mo' frum da Lawd Rob,

What is interesting is that, while it is clear to us that Maharishi acted like a horny teenager (he was in his fifties, the girls in their twenties), to some others there arises a discussion of Brahman and ego, and intellect's incapacity to make decisions, etc. The facts are hard to confront without a curtain of metaphysics to hide behind.

Some things do not need to be over-explained. If a guru f*cks his disciples he is doing wrong. If he is supposed to be enlightened, then he is really doing wrong since he "knows" better. He is not living in ignorance and cannot use that as his excuse. It's hardly a question of when and how the individual decides to do right or wrong, it's a question, as Casey says, of having a moral code that tells him how to live and then essaying to live by it. Maharishi was indoctrinated in India with a strict moral code. Sex with one's disciples is not OK in that code. He knows the rules. All that seems to have happened is that he has decided that he is not bound by any of them, including the vow of celibacy he took to his revered Guru Dev. For those in the movement who put any store at all by vows given to one's guru, how is that permissible? And how, knowing MMY's behavior, would anyone honor any vow they might make to him? I believe that the very people who find all this so terrible and mean would hesitate before ever making the kind of commitment to him that many of us made back then.

I think it is understandable for people like John's friend to be upset and to lash out at us. As time goes along, and as these thoughts settle, it will become clearer why we are saying what we are saying. And again, to those who are listening in: this did not start out as a public service. These emails were circulated among a very few people and I personally never intended them to go farther. However, lest some think that I am shrinking from my position, I am glad they have. I now know there is a wider readership than I had heretofore imagined. I will continue to write these messages to Rob, Casey, and John, as I have been, with all the same arrogance and indiscretion I can muster. After all, it's my trademark.

Ned

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Fri, 6 Sep 2002 16:20:54 -0700
From: "Ned Wynn" To: "Casey Coleman" CC: "John Doe" ,"Robert McCutchean"

Rob,

This is by far the most revealing of all our emails. Without having to indulge in nasty, poo-poo dirty revelations, we see MMY in all his fetishistic grandeur. Dressing up his little American girls like little Indian girls, the saris, all the makeup, etc. And then having at them. Do I smell Madonna-Whore? Do I smell Oedipus? Your recounting of the way it worked is way more telling than anything I have said regarding what the girls revealed about the actual sexual encounters (which made Jennifer sick to her stomach to talk about). This is really at the crux of his psychological problems. He got to f*ck all those beautiful out-of-reach Indian women by tarting up some American girls to look like them, etc. And you know Ashok knew damn well what was up. So did Devindra though he would never say anything untoward. He would do it with looks. Too much of a gentleman, or just too damn scared.

This was some of your best writing, by the way.

Ned

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Mon, 9 Sep 2002 21:30:47 -0400
From: Robert McCutchean
To: Ned Wynn CC: Casey Coleman
Subject: Re: What is Enlightenment?

Ned, Definitely a Dick moment. I agree with Ned -- MMY is not enlightened, therefore sex with disciples is not ok. But if I believed he were enlightened, then as Ned points out, sex would be ok. For example, suppose Trungpa were Enlightened. We know he had sex with his disciples. But he wasn't a hypocrite about it. It is hard to say what made me finally conclude MMY wasn't an enlightened being. Certainly the sexcapades were part of it, and the hypocrisy, and the obvious attraction to money and elevation of those who had it, and the increasing paranoia/demonology, and the increasing bad taste of the names for increasing nutty programs, and the inflated and delusional claims to saving the world -- but you know what finally got me -- his cruelty to those who served him. I remember Angelika von Killischorn -- she was the first western brahmacharini just like I was the first Brahmachari, Casey second, and Ned would have been third except he had more sense than Casey or I. And one day MMY was getting ready to go somewhere, and A von K brought him a glass of water. And he took a big drink and then spit it all over her as if it were sulfuric acid. And then he told someone else to go get him water (from the same jug), and they brought it and he drank it, and I watched A von K die inside. Then I watched her deteriorate into madness -- she was somehow unworthy to bring the master water -- he had to spit it all over her. She may still be in a mental institution. And something in me said that an enlightened man should be able to drink a glass of water brought to him by anyone -- provided it wasn't sulfuric acid. And in that moment the seamless garment of MMY's perfection began to unravel. Bro Robert

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Mon, 16 Sep 2002 15:30:47 -0500

Dear Casey, Joe Schmoe just told me a story that kind of scared me. I sent the emails to both Joe and Jane Doe. On the first or second day she saw Joe and asked him what he thought. Now Joe says he said it was 30 years ago and he doesn't know what happened or cares that much. And Joe said MMY is a man and anything could be possible. Jane went mad that Joe didn't condemn the ideas. Joe went to the dome that night and 2 guys came up to him and said they hear he is spreading rumors about MMY. Joe conveyed that Jane Doe went many times more nuts than I could imagine. This is slightly scary. Later, John

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Tue, 17 Sep 2002 10:36:57 -0500
http://www.ex-premie.org/papers/gp_quotes.htm

"Gurus do give special attention to those with wealth or power; having celebrities in one's entourage increases coffers, influence, and membership."(p.89)

"In the realm of sexuality, the two prevalent ways control is exerted are through promulgating either celibacy or promiscuity...both serve the same function: they minimize the possibilities of people bonding deeply with each other, thus reducing factors that compete with the guru for attention." (p.92)

"Celibacy does allow one to maintain a certain kind of control of one's energy and emotions. It also conforms with images of purity. Therefore, it is far easier for a guru to gain and maintain power if he is celibate - or pretends to be."(p.92)

"Gurus who preach celibacy while secretly engaging in sexuality present sex as an esoteric initiation ritual or advanced spiritual exercise that must be kept hidden... But it is the lie, not the sex, that's the real issue. The lie indicates the guru's entire persona is a lie, that his image as selfless and beyond ego is a core deception."(p.95)

"The standards of purity necessary for the role of guru must bring unconscious repression and filtering mechanisms that ensure deceit and hypocrisy around self-interest,"(p.106)

Being a guru "...creates a feedback-proof system where the guru always needs to be right and cannot be shown to be wrong - which is where learning comes from." (p.107)

"Why would even the most realized of beings want people to become reliant on his wisdom instead of their own?" (p.108)

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Wednesday, October 23, 2002 12:31 PM
Subject: Re: Pebbles and Sandcastles

Brothers, This last email brought to mind an earlier email where the subject of the difference between Religion and Spirituality was broached. This discussion about MMY lying about the mantras seems to me to fall into a category of a mixing or confusion or definition about the realms or boundaries of Religion and Spirituality. Where as Religion could be characterized as a collection of dogma, Spirituality could be characterized as a matter of Intent. A matter of clarity and experience of Intent. These discussions seem to argue on a deeper level Maharishi's Intent. It seems to me that what brings us together is Intent. Some kind of collective Intent. Could Maharishi's Intent have changed? Has each one of our Intents have changed since we started Meditation?

For me all the "scientific gobledy gook" of the movement seemed to obscure the original Intent. I was always interested in "God" and "Truth" and "Knowledge" and "Wisdom." I can remember when I went to my first TM lecture and I thought the lecturer was not very clear or conscious of what the actual Intent of the meditation was. I thought that it was because he had not had a clear enough "Spiritual" experience.

What I hear from each of you is a deeper and clearer explanations of your Intents. Of what "God", "Truth", "Knowledge" and "Wisdom" mean to you. Once I heard Maharishi say that "Evolution means Growth of Love." That matched my Intent precisely. Perhaps I would say "Life is for Growth of Love."

Om, Becky

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Saturday, October 26, 2002 11:48 AM

From: Ned Wynn Sent: Subject: Re: Pebbles and Sandcastles

Beck,

Let me throw a bit more Hoffer at you in preamble to my own thoughts on this:

"The [leader of a mass movement] is eclectic in the methods he uses to endow the new order with stability and permanence. He borrows from near and far and from friend and foe. He even goes back to the old order which preceded the movement and appropriates from it many techniques of stability, thus...establishing continuity with the past. The institution of an absolute dictator...is as much the deliberate employment of a device [a 'king', a 'government', 'advanced techniques'] as the manifestation of a sheer hunger for power. Byzantinism is likely to be conspicuous at the...decline of an organization." Eric Hoffer, The True Believer brackets are mine

In my mind the movement has been in its latter, (stagnating) phase for some years. The active phase was over by 1975 or earlier. I would date the beginning of the decline to the institution of the siddhas, whenever that was. Hence, any changes that we see now are the result of the increasing "Byzantinism" of the movement. This is meant to hold the true believers together (against the "outside" world, hence Burns classic true believer outburst against us "doobie" smokers who point our "little fingers" at him, etc.), keeping them meek (the girls lining up for the 'king'), convinced (Burns), and in place (John, Burns, the rest, especially those at Fairfield and other TM enclaves), while at the same time rewarding the ambitious, career-minded Officers-of-Rank (only within the confines of the movement itself) with more titles and perks (nothing "real" nothing in the outside world, hence the utter failure of the Natural Law Party to ever win anything, the failure to actually get any government to accept this in the schools or government institutions, etc.); creating "necessary" institutional "improvements" to facilitate the establishment of Global Peace; blaring out, through a megaphone named Powell Woods, Goebbels-like "urgent" new directives (nothing urgent about them at all. Totally bogus. I mean totally, utterly bogus) for which the believers must suddenly be galvanized to new action, to extend/protect the goals of the movement (and to continue to think they - the believers - are important, that they "count;" they do count, but not for the reasons they think. They are merely a source of money).

Never expect anything in the movement to be pure anything. It was the search for purity that brought most of us in the first place, but we never encountered it (purity) there. It was in reaction to the outside, impure, world. The world was too grotesque, corrupt, painful, wrong, greedy, mean, warlike, nasty, brutish and short. So we responded to something that was advertised as the root of all right action, the basis for a new beginning, based, as Casey points out, on the Sanatana Dharma (not stated in the beginning of TM as such) or "original intent" of all spiritual learning and living. Becky points out the disjunction between religion and spirituality. I think it is endemic to the teaching. The spirituality of TM is the religion. You can try and separate them, but the mantras, the pujas, all that, they are religious.

My point is this: there never really was anything "pure" about TM, including the intent. To think that is to continue to safeguard our own early days, our own ideas about ourselves, to assume that we were, once, attached to something good and wonderful which was then corrupted. I don't believe this is right anymore. I now think the corruption was inherent in the original moment of its (TM's) creation. MMY set out to deceive from the beginning - for whatever reasons, to save the world, whatever, deception was at its core. We were part of that deception though we did not then know exactly what it was or how it worked.

I certainly understood from the beginning that there was some "stretching" of the truth when we lectured and when we initiated. But, as with all true believers, I chose to go along with this because I had bought into the idea that the end justified the means. I could behave in a not-altogether-forthright manner (i.e., I could lie) because a greater truth was being served. There was no such thing as cheating or being unfaithful as there was only one thing that demanded our faith - MMY and TM, inextricably bound. Everything else was up for grabs. Hence the idea of cheating in business. I remember Jerry Jarvis wondering aloud in Kashmir why the Muslims could cheat us so readily and without any apparent pangs of conscience. I said to him that, what I understood was that to the Muslims, we were the Infidel. We did not have the standing in the universe that the Muslim did. The Infidel may be cheated, lied to, killed. All with impunity. To a lesser extent, this mindset exists in the TM movement today.

This is how all mass movements work, it is how they gain adherents, especially in the early days. If I did not have this willingness in me, this willingness to bow to a "greater" authority (not God, mind you, a human authority, a guru), I would never have been involved in the movement. I would have meditated, taken what I could from that, and moved on. So I do not bemoan anything that is taking place in the movement today. The movement, seen objectively, is almost a cliché of all mass movements. Each phase is mirrored in some already clearly understood and delineated outline of mass movement behavior. It's a well-recognized pattern. Rob has a fascinating article he wrote concerning the ways in which TM follows a predictable course. It (the course of the movement) is not unusual, in fact it is the norm. TM is on schedule. It will finally sink, irretrievably, into the black hole of failed ideas once MMY has exhausted all avenues of financial annuity, and he dies. No Bevan Morris or a guy named Nader Raam or a Keith Wallace is going to save it.

I have taken this tack because I think I need to be clearer on my own behavior. George Burns has illustrated to me what I used to be like. I argued as he does, I thought I was the one who was clear and it was others who were wrong. They just didn't get it. As Casey put it to him, all the scriptures, all the philosophers, all the Hindus, everyone in history is wrong, but George is right. That argument has no weight with George. He is still perceiving reality from inside the bubble. Maya has many levels. One level of Maya is the level in which one thinks he has escaped Maya. He has become a "knower of reality." That was one of MMY's early sucker plays. In order to keep a mass movement going, the leader separates the believers from all the "others," the unbelievers (see radical Islam), the ignorant non-meditators, the unenlightened, those who are somehow "asleep." Once isolated, he inoculates the believers with more dope (advanced meditations, siddhis, separate habitations, new habits, rules about how to build a house, how to live in it, etc.) so that the believer's own sense of his specialness is enhanced. I am this temple of the knowledge of the ancients, a vessel of truth. Now the believer has a lot invested. His very consciousness is invested in the movement. What happens to him if he leaves? He will shrivel. He will die. Burns has a lot to protect. John ditto. I understand. I thought I did too.

Ned

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Thu, 02 Jan 2003 22:12:23 -0500

Yes, the Mia incident at Rishikesh could be taken as an innocent thing, but because Maharishi Mahesh Yogi, in the greater context of the time, was an aggressive sex maniac, the correct interpretation is that it was a sexual advance. Also it is very inappropriate to take a lady alone into your basement and put your arms around her. Also I think it is significant how much time MMY had spent courting her every day for weeks before the incident. Long last the truth comes out on why Beatles left. Because Mia told them what MMY did to her.

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The end, for now.